Tuesday, July 31, 2007
She smiled in a big way, the way a girl like that smiles
when the world is hers and she held your eyes
out in the breezeway down by the shore in the lazy summer
But you've already lost
when you only had barely enough to hang on
she made you better than you'd been before
she told you bad things you wished you could change in the lazy summer
and she told you, laughing down to her core, so she would not cry as she lay in your lap
she said "nobody here can live forever, quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer".
But you've already lost
when you only had barely enough to hang on
She said, "no one is alone the way you are alone"
and you held her looser than you would have if you ever could have known
some things tie your life together, in slender threads and things to treasure
days like that should last and last and last.
But you've already lost
when you only had barely enough to hang on
i feel slightly off today.okay.maybe damn off,in a idontknowhowtodescribekinda mood and i dont know why.
this cycle continues yet again
i hate it when you keep entering and leaving my life time and time again
perfect prom queen ;
Saturday, July 28, 2007
woke up pretty late today,had lunch and left for school which was sucha a waste of time.today was like a skirt switcheroo day.switched around the skirts and i had to squeeze and stuff myself into a size 26 skirt today and calling it a high-waisted skirt would be an understatement.
managed to read quite a bit of harry potter in the LT so the time is there wasnt all that wasted though the ideal would be to study for review week BUT the LT is such an UN-CONDUCIVE place to study!
bumped into linyu,zelei and rhea outside the school cause they came for college day which must have been a waste of their time too with prelims coming soon.haha.
After that,got a ride on lem's cab to church and i wasnt late.after service ended,it was twiggy time:)before heading back in for ministry service.ministry was good,you could feel His presence really strongly.
yesterday
school ended early and we went to town.got the bro's balloon before joining the rest at macdonald house for LJS and talking cock.went to watch the simpsons i guess it's okay?i wanna watch disturbia!sneaks opened that same night!gahh.
After the movie,we went to B&J for ice-cream,courtesy of CNN!sat there doing talking and doing retarded stuff.
rushed down to meet liz before tuition,attempted to do our homework but ended up talking and anyhow filling in the numbers in the last five minutes before rushing off for tuition,going in on-time(NOT).haha.
i felt so forgetful after tuition,leaving the balloon behind and remembering after getting off the train so i had to go all the way back to get it.gahh.
I've got a song that I sing
And I can make the rain go
Any time I move my finger
perfect prom queen ;
Thursday, July 26, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LALA!
thank you for always being there.having loads of fun on malacca trip with our deluxe hotel rooms:)my late-night talking buddy,even talking till 2am when we had a history CA the next day and we totally hadnt even studied much.thank you for all the hugs and postcards everytime.hope you like the presents and the one still to come:)we'll go for our Max Brenner's soon!love you babydarling:)
helmsman today was boring as usual and i kena sabo-ed in the LT by my dear ruth chee.i was just stoning and almost falling asleep there next to her and suddenly she went to raise up her hand when i totally didnt even do a single thing.haha.really malu.then we had electives which dragged as usual.
After school,rushed down to lala's house to pass her the huge sunflower and spongebob&patrick balloon:)stayed in her room for nearly two hours talking and doing stuff.after that,got a lift from her mum to dover,her mum is always so nice!going over today made me miss going over to her house and hanging out by the poolside and talking bout like everything and lots of nonsense.haha.
i love flowers they're so pretty!both giving and receiving are fun.haha.reminds me of the huge bunch of roses,which were a huge surprise,they were really pretty:)and all the gerberas we always buy during concerts!big sunflowers are so big,summery and happy.haha.
the orchard library's gonna close down!it's so sad,it's like my favourite library of all time!all the good,nice and bad memories all there.all the fun times there doing lots of rubbishy stuff with the different people.
Give me the song and I'll sing it like I mean it
Give me the words and I'll say them like I mean it
perfect prom queen ;
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
had broadway dance today.it was pretty cool and more fun than salsa.THE SPIDEY SONG!
i think i'm dying from all the workload,there's so much chinese work to do!and how on earth is there time to even study?gahh.or maybe i'm just slacking too much.haha.
that emelyn chew is one laggy person,she just realized that all the cereal boxes had one note in each and the flap was intentionally left open for her to see it and she only realized it today when she received them yesterday!
and i dont understand what rae was talking about on her blog.haha.
singing lines from all our favorite songs
and melodies in the air
perfect prom queen ;
Monday, July 23, 2007
When it's not alright
When it's not ok
Will you try to make me feel better
Will you say alright
Will you say ok
Will you stick with me through whatever
Or run away
today was a good day:)
went to school for helmsman which i thought could have ended earlier.gahh.but we did spastic things in school today.haha.
rushed all the way down to town,grabbed sushi and rushed down to holland V to meet lala to get emelyn's birthday surprise.sat at provence eating,talking,brainstorming bout appropriate presents and how to give the present due to unforeseen circumstances.haha.provence has nice sandwiches and it's sucha cute place.
we decided on getting two balloons-spongebob and harry potter!and presents that were of significance:)CEREALBOXES!HARRYPOTTER!
sat at some ulu foodcourt to write our notes and find some way to make do with what we have and attach them.
walked all the way down to the house and left it with her mum,hope she got a surprise when she walked into her room:)a birthday surprise wayy in advance!haha.
LOVES.
THE BALLOONS!
walking down the stretch from em's house
rae and lala:)
i guess no one understands how it feels like,other than her,who has gone through this,and the big guy up above,climbing that mountain that i felt was impossible to overcome.i was slowly climbing,no doubt,i stumbled a few times for the first few months but just when i was slowly reaching the top where everything felt slightly better,i just had to be plunged back down to the bottom again,right back where i started from,back to square one.now i'm just standing here,feeling lost,not knowing anything.sometimes i think i should learn to really leave things in His hands after i've committed them to Him and not even think about them at all though it's tough to do so.but i know,with Him,in the end everything will turn out fine one way or another.
yesterdaywent for service and i learnt quite a bit from the message.
went for cell lunch at this indonesian restaurant that had really good chendol!
After that,picked mum up from the airport.SHE'S BACK!i was hoping to eat popeye's for dinner but we had to settle for delifrance instead:(
anyway,friend,i'm happy for you and for your decision:)weirdly,never again is stuck in my head since this morning.
It's like a last chance
For a first dance
You're a sunrise that
Can't somehow exist
perfect prom queen ;
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true
Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame
Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This one's for you
it's fun waiting for good old snail mail,anticipating for the postman to finally come by with your mail!haha.
thank you myrna for the chocolates:)
thank you rachel for the note and bird's nest
thank you bestie for the sweet note by snail mail
thank you people for the thank you notes
LOVES:)
i feel very loved.haha.
subway day today with jayne and CNN.sat there talking and stoning,looking through retarded and unglam photos.almost started camwhoring again but my baby just had to die on me with no battery!what a nice time eh.so we fell back on the old 1.3 meg phonecam for pictures though we didnt really camwhore much.haha.
tonight i hear your cry,
i want to wipe those tears
but i'm afraid to say a word
i know its not my problem
but i'd be here with youget well soon bernice,from the fall into the bush with bush juice and all!LOVES
sometimes i think i talk too much,just blabbering and rambling on and on and talking bout random stuff.okay.random.
i hope you're feeling fine and not stressed out cause i just want you to be happyanyway,the matriach's gone off to spain this week!hope she's coming back with loads of nice stuff cause i'm hearing bout all the sales from her.haha.but i guess most importantly,she should have a nice and fulfilling trip:)
Cause nothing worth having,comes easy.It may fall on your lap and things seem perfect,but you have to work to keep it,right?
picturessince someone complain bout collages and small pictures.haha.
the fun we have in class.haha.
And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how
Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
perfect prom queen ;
Friday, July 13, 2007
Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go
Today in the blink of an eye
Im holding on to something and I do not know why I tried
I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation; what Im feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
hello who has thunder by boys like girls and FM static's tonight,send it to me!
wed
didnt go school and went to the hospital for the allergy test.it took quite a while and cost a bomb.gahh.but one thing good came out of it-I'M NOT ALLERGIC TO PEANUT BUTTER:)
Ended in the afternoon and went down to town to meet em for lunch and watch the sneaks for harry potter!
we went to take neoprints too after like eons and we had so much time at the booth cause there was nearly no one in town.the joys of having a school close to town and early dismissal times that i'm so utterly deprived of!haha.
the movie was alright,darker than the previous few but i still prefered the book.i like the weasley twins in the movie!haha.
so am i supposed to laugh at your lies that i know the truth to?thursdayhad a long day of school then we went down to Max Brenner's for chocolate meal.we had chocolate fondue,marshmallow crepes,belgian waffles and truffles.
The other three nearly got sweetened to death by the marshmallow crepe.
everyone got on a sugar and chocolate high after the meal except jayne who was high before,during and after everything!she kept doing retarded and mad stuff which makes people question her sanity.haha.
CHOCOLATE HEAVEN,courtesy of CNN!
i dont know what's going on,now i'm confused.just when i thought things couldnt get any worseWe've been crazy people in school lately,camwhoring and taking candid shots in class.all shots of pictures.haha.
that day,i dropped my camera from like quite a great height and the baby had scratches,thank god the lens and all are fine and intact but it was damn heart pain!
i wish i had the ability to make everyone smile,make everyone happy,now wouldnt that be great:)
Standing still
I'm waiting round to see if this is real
Cause I feel like I'm asleep
I'll open up my eyes
Cause you might be the type of
that makes me dream when I'm awake
perfect prom queen ;
Sunday, July 08, 2007
This is morning
That's when I spend the most time
Thinking 'bout what I've given up
This is a warning
When you start the day just to close the curtains
You're thinking 'bout what I've given up
Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through the stereo
I'm writing you a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As I rearrange the songs again
This mix could burn a hole in anyone
But it was you I was thinking of
I read your letter
The one you left when you broke into my house
Retracing every step you made
And you said you meant it
And there's a piece of me in every single
Second of every single day
But if it's true then tell me how it got this way
Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through the stereo
I'm writing you a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As I rearrange the songs again
This mix could burn a hole in anyone
But it was you I was thinking of
And I can't get to you
I can't get to you
I can't get to you
Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through the stereo
I conduct a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As I'm cutting through you track by track
I swear to God this mix could sink the sun
But it was you I was thinking of
And where are you now?
And where are you now?
And this is my mixed tape for her
It's like I wrote every note
With my own fingers
went out for dinner with stephy last night.we went to sakura and the variety of food there was really awesome.and of course i got my fill of sashimi.haha.
we headed down to funan to meet her mum and relatives and we went down to haagen dazs at raffles for dessert.had raspberry sorbet and tiramisu with hot fudge and cookie crumble.wayy good.though i felt pretty bad cause it was their treat.
thanks for the awesome night darl!had a great talk with you.thanks for everything:)hope you liked the stuff:)we'll meet up again soon!love you.
it was the live earth weekend and i wore green on both saturday and sunday and i know it sounds utterly retarded.but there were people wearing it with me.haha.
cause i told myself that you wont matter to me anymore
pictures
i'm starting on OTH3.NATHANHALEYLUCASPEYTONBROOKE:)
I find You in the secret place
I find You on the mountain
I find You in the early hours of my day
I find You when I’m waiting
I find You when I’m in Your Word
I find You when I’m talking to You
When I pray
You are my hiding
You are my hiding placecause i know there will always be this hiding place i can go to and this person i can turn to:)
perfect prom queen ;
Saturday, July 07, 2007
Ninety miles outside Chicago
Can't stop driving
I don't know why
So many questions
I need an answer
Two years and later
You're still on my mind
Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart?
Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you
Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
Or what the wind says when she cries?
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninety-seventh time tonight
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you
Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you
I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watched the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me tonight?
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you
Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you
EVA LONGORIA AND TONY PARKER'S GONNA GET MARRIED TODAY!070707.
haha.it reminds me of jayne,nm,kenrick and i talking bout nice dates to get married on while we were rushing out of school to get a cab down to marina to watch diehard 4.0 yesterday.like 121212 where they'll be just legal and starting uni.haha.
diehard 4.0 was good with all the action,effects and all.
there was this funny incident yesterday when we were going back to city hall and we walked past this golf and sports fair and the california fitness guy wanted to pass kenrick a brochure or card then he just walked off.the guy said something along the lines of but you need the exercise since i didnt hear the actual thing cause i was walking wayy front.when jayne and nm heard it,they started laughing their heads off and it sparked off a 5 minutes or more laughing session.haha.
and fernando torres is officially joining the reds and donning the liverpool colours!yayness.
PPT today was quite weird yet funny in a way but quite a waste of time when i could have been sleeping in instead.
I said I'd moved on and I'll leave it alone,
But before I walk out there is something that I need you to know,
I got lost in a blink of an eye,
And I can never get back, no I've never got back,
You were not there when I wanted to say,
That you were everything that night and it wasn't you but me to change,
Now I got to go it alone
I said I'm okay but I know how to lie,
You were all that i had,
You were delicate and hard to find,
I got lost in the back of my mind,
And I can never get back, no I've never got back
You were not there when I needed to say,
I hit the bottom so fast that my head was spinning 'round for days,
Now I gotta go it alone
perfect prom queen ;
Friday, July 06, 2007
Lie in this empty bed
With this aching head
You left me here this morning
Now I can't remember why
I let you in again
To get under my skin
And every time you disappear
I remember
How I look for you
But I can't see your face
And then I hear you
The only thing you say
I am afraid right now
I don't wanna let you down
And I am the one who can't be saved
The only thing I say
I am afraid right now
What if I can't get out?
What if I don't want to be saved?
This is me afraid
Now there's no place like home
To make me feel alone
I see you everywhere I am
And I remember how you ran out to hide
You kept me close behind
Following your every move so I remember
I look for you
But I can't see your face
And then I hear you
The only thing you say
I am afraid right now
I don't wanna let you down
And I am the one who can't be saved
The only thing I say
I am afraid right now
What if I can't get out?
What if I don't want to be saved?
This is me afraid
I look for you
But I can't see your face
Then I hear you
The only thing you say is
Don't look for me
Cause you will never say
You won't hear me
You won't hear me
Why do we keep this up?
Why do we live like us?
When there is nothing left to save
Will you be afraid?
perfect prom queen ;
Thursday, July 05, 2007
The years flash by, today melts to yesterdays memories,
Time's holding us tight
I'm looking back to remember the days we said we'd never say goodbye.
And now you're gone, my hands melt to yesterday's melodies
Time's pushing along,
Still looking back to hold on to the days we said we'd never say goodbye.
Sometimes I feel like we've been running too far from the truth
You know I'm tired of hearing 'another day another time'
All this senseless waiting won't fill these dark empty rooms,
Why won't you come home?
felt awfully horrible today in school and left before electives to come home.came home and conked out with my companion,the feverpack.
the weather has been so uber hot and humid.gahh.i guess it's partly the weird weather that suddenly got me sick.
FERNANDO TORRES IS COMING TO LIVERPOOL!yayness.i like torres:)haha.
Press rewind and stop the tape
Let's play it from the start
And pause before we part
perfect prom queen ;
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
Share with me the blankets that you're wrapped in
Because its cold outside cold outside its cold outside
Share with me the secrets that you kept in
Because its cold inside cold inside its cold inside
And your slowly shaking finger tips
Show that you're scared like me so
Let pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know we're unprepared
But I don't care
Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible
I was born to tell you I love you
Its that a song already
I get a B in originality
And its true I cant go on without you
Your smile makes me see clear
If you could only see in the mirror what I see
And your slowly shaking finger tips
Show that you're scared like me so
Let pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know we're unprepared
But I don't care
Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible
Slow down girl you're not going anywhere
Just wait around and see
Maybe I am much more you never no what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone I can be anything
Just because you were hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed
I can be anyone anything I promise I can be what you need
Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible
vulnerable's gonna take over as the secondhand serenade song of the week!haha.
i still cant believe he actually went to queue up for three hours for donuts,just for a girl.so sweet eh.the small boy's all grown up!haha.
school was kinda okay today i guess but civics was pretty waste of time with reviewing of the survey.
went out for lunch at subway."subway,eat fresh!" as quoted from jayne!haha.
i'm so dreading the differentiation test on friday cause i reallyreally cant do and cant stand differentiation!gahhh.
I'm riding it out
This storm that you brought in
Bringing it down
On me around
For you, I'd go again
perfect prom queen ;
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR EXAM RUTH!
dont stress out dear!
and i finally found that life goes on without you
and my world still turns when you're not around
is this the way you want it?
is this the way it has to be?
sitting here beside you
but my heart's lost in new orleans
dreams come clever, hearts now severed
difference of forever, and i am lost there
come and go now as you please
your actions write the melodies
to the songs that we sing
and you just sing along out loud
perfect prom queen ;
Monday, July 02, 2007
Six feet under, under my skin
There's a battle I know I can't win
Six feet under, under my skin
There is where your story begins
You were wanting, I was forsaken
You came to me with words unspoken
I can't deny it
That I knew my glass would end up broken
and that's how you got me
I blame myself for being stupid
But I can't help it
It's not that hard, just walk away
There's gotta be a different meaning
perfect prom queen ;
