Monday, April 30, 2007
I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight
I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreaming
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holding you, holding you, holding you tonight
I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat and told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here
I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holding you, holding you, holding you tonight"
I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holding you, holding you, holding you tonight"
i love this song.it's real nice:)
i got my new camera-ixus 65:)though what i really wanted was the ixus i7 zoom in sepia for some sepia-tone loving but they discontinued the line this year!gahh.nehneh.and i thought the 'rents were gonna get the 75 for me instead but the got the 65 in the end.nehneh.but i guess i'll just be thankful for what i have:)
the sepia love that i really wanted:(
what i got in the end but i'm still happy:)
they got me my airline vintage bag too:)YAYNESS.i totally didnt expect them to get it!but that makes me happier:)they brought back loads of food too!laopobing loves:)they brought back the damn nice ones!and i got my fill of a mini HK shopping trip through a medium-the 'rents!haha.
i realize that my entries are like a yoyo.one moment damn happy like on some happy high,one moment notsohappy.i sound damn mental.haha.
So brown eyes I hold you near
Cause you’re the only song I want to hear
A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere
perfect prom queen ;
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Went for tribe meeting today.camp gilgal is coming up and i'll be back in time to attend it:)i thought i was gonna miss the first few days.We had chocolates from switzerland today cause mad is back!
After the meeting,we walked out via the back of the halls,deb and i started camwhoring on her ixus and we took so many retarded photos in that short span of time.
yesterday
woke up late in the morning as expected,got up at 720 when i was supposed to be in school by 730.rushed down and all,got to school at 8 plus for open house.this year's turnout was quite lousy compared to last year's.
by the afternoon,i was grumpy,cranky and easily irritable due to the lack of sleep,having to wake up at the unearthly hour of 720 on a saturday morning!
we went to the airport for fish&co for CNN's postbirthday celebration lunch.and we got so high on the bus due to 'buddha's delight' from music&lyrics,'oh shanti shanti' was the word of the day,it was repeated countless of times and used as a method for waking people like CNN from their deep slumber.it's also a method to scare off other people on the bus,there was this old man who was sitting at the backseat with us but decided to change seats after that,but we didnt intend to scare him off!a good way to attract weird stares too,there was this little girl who was looking at us with weird expression like we were off our rockers.okay.maybe we were at that point in time but usually,we're sane,normal people i guess.haha.kenrick chin-a-chin kept shaking to the music and going 'buddha's delight' in this really high pitched voice.
and CNN has a new english/indian name-SHANTI or as he likes to spell it-SHANTY cause he was so eager to listen to the song after we were singing it and he said it was a catchy tune.
after lunch,b left and we sat around for a pretty long while talking and me being grossed out and terrorized at certain stuff.one word-GROSS.period.no reasons needed!
waited for rachel to come to the airport while ken+rick and jayne left for home.she came and we went to the viewing gallery to stone,camwhore and just crap before going home.
i feel like i'm drifting.like what he said,we need to find back our First Love.i need to find back my First Love all over again.to place Him first in my life again.i need to come back to the heart of everything.
Draw me close to You
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
perfect prom queen ;
Saturday, April 28, 2007
everything just isnt going right now.sometimes i really dont know what to do.
and every tear that had to fall from my eyes
everyday i wonder how i get through the night
every change life has thrown me
perfect prom queen ;
Friday, April 27, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEBORAH!
you're finally legal!hahha.always nice talking to you,shopping and camwhoring with you along with carol.and all those fun times at camp:)i'll be able to make it in time for this year's camp!see you on sun:)LOVES.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NI MING!you're finally legal too!but not very legal yet.haha.hope you had fun on your birthday CNN!maybe you spent it watching your favorite character-CHO CH_NG!so should be having a nice time.haha.
school was wayy boring today.i think i should have stuck to the original plan of just staying at home.the 'rents flew off this morning and they got upgraded for free to business class and got some 500 bucks voucher and the matriach had to message me bout it when i was stuck in school.i should be there flying business class to HK and getting vouchers too instead of staying in singapore!gahh.
went for lunch at subway before the rest left and i went down to wisma to meet chee.we went on clothes-trying spree!i found some nice stuff and i need more moolah!
left town to meet liz for dinner then tuition.i so wanted to eat chocolate chip cookies and sushi for some weird reason but we settled for kfc instead.
tuition tonight was fun,we were decorating/writing lyrics¬es in each other's notebooks,back to the sec sch days.i miss everyone drawing/writing in everyone's notebooks,like leaving your mark everywhere!haha.
i got to school on time today,surprisingly.i thought i would be late cause i left the house late.i hope i wont be late tomorrow too!what if i wake up at the usual saturday time of 10!best.no more ushering to do and a whole lot of explaining to do on mon and i guess i rather not have that?
i think the supersampler is really nice but a holga coloursplash is really cool and the effects are better.anyone wants to lend me a holga to play with?i wouldnt mind a supersampler too.haha.should i get a holga?
hey sweetheart
dont think bout that alright.move on,persevere on cause it's like the last stage before you finally complete everything:)LOVES.But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enoughone of the lyrics written:)
to the people who thought that i was emo due to____________.no it's not the reason.
perfect prom queen ;
Thursday, April 26, 2007
uber slack and short day today.woke up at like 8,cause i thought i had to go somewhere for something,though i was supposed to sleep till ten.spent the rest of the morning watching OTH:)
Went to school from like 12 plus till 4 plus just to play a round of cashflow.I'm glad financial literacy is finally over,it's pretty boring and dry compared to other helmsman weeks and we end so late everyday!
The 'rents are off to HK tomorrow.i've been like trying to convince them to bring me along so that i dont have to stay in s'pore for all the stuff going on over the next few days.gahh.i wanna go HK!i need to get outta singapore to HK,shopping haven!i think i might be late for school over the next few days with no one sending me and being the back-up alarm.
sometimes all you want to do is to take away the pain,to lessen the burden,to know exactly what had caused it
just smile
smiling is like a shield for you from everyone
smiling is like the mask you put on to make everything seem right
I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics
cause I don't want you to know where I am
cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
perfect prom queen ;
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
somedays i feel i might just break down with this going on so often recently.maybe sometimes all she cares about is herself
i'm just having a tough time right now.
sometimes i wish everything would just go away even though i know that it's all part of His plan for me,to be right where i am now.
i'm just depending on the little happy things in my life to make me happy,make me smile and pull through everyday
maybe i shall go find something to do now to make me feel happier
All of a sudden,
the wind just change direction,
and that big black cloud came rolling in.
And if you get too high
What goes around comes around
And brings you down
Fake your laughter
Burn the tear
Sing it louder
Twist and shout
perfect prom queen ;
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
GOLD WITH HONOURS BABY!
YAYNESS!i'm so happy and proud of you guys:)you guys deserve it after all that hard work!i would have done anything to be there at SCH watching your GWH performance!if only i did not have cashflow in the afternoon:(
i'm so uber knackered today.long day today and financial literacy is boring me outta my wits and the days are so uber long.whoever assumed that helmsman are slack weeks are wrong.the days end so late!
left earlier for tuition at buona vista and tuition ended so late that i had to walk the long ulu dark path all the way to the station alone.
but today felt good with all the long bus and train rides,i got to catch up on some reading.long time since i got any chance to sit down and read a good book.but my mp3 just had to die on me on the train ride home at buona vista,so i was left with no music for the whole long trip home.gahh.
hey darling,
dont get all stressed up.dont let everything get to you.it's only a while more and it'll all be over.SMILE:)
i'm waiting for people's midyrs to be over to go for starbucks sessions,siglap and all our funny escapades!:)
I’m done for now, so one for now
Possibly forever we had fun together
But like all good things, we must come to an end
Please show the same love to my friends
Dear Summer
perfect prom queen ;
Sunday, April 22, 2007
just church-ed.went up for ministry during worship.it was touching just hearing the person speak those words into my life and i just started tearing somehow.had a good talk with deb today,told her quite a lot of stuff,things she never knew.haha.
i had popiah and chocolate ice-cream eclair spree for dinner last night at the gramma's place.it's wayy good man.i was wayy full after that and marcus is getting cuter each time i see him and he's really intelligent for his age,his replies to your questions are really hilarious.
friday
it was an okay day but i got so frustrated with my fringe in the morning that i went to snip it shorter.okay so now i'm in the bangs club though i totally didnt intend and didnt want to do bangs at all.i feel like i'm back to kindergarten days with bangs and all.i'm waiting for it to grow longer!back to its long normal self so GROWGROWGROW!
went all the way down to queensway in the afternoon to get new shoes:)Went down to bugis to meet liz for tuition and both of us were wayy tired during the whole lesson and i rushed through my work just to have some time for some shut-eye.OOPS.
After that,met rae and got my sushi:) before taking the bus home together and doing spastic things on the bus.
have you seen the new lamborghini gallardo superleggera?it's really nice.
the black one and grey ones are sleek.too bad there's no red for this model but i still prefer the spyder,the red spyder!but too bad it's no fun to drive a lamborghini in singapore though you can get a glimpse of some at hyatt or mandarin.
ohh congrats to chee for getting gold with honours and tomorrow's handbells' SYF!
All the best for tomorrow!get gold or even better,get gold with honours!relive SC's gold spree of '05!i dont think i'll be able to make it down tomorrow but i'll be waiting for the happy news:)i heard many of them cried the other day when miss goh gave her motivational speech.i heard the content from aries and i think i would have cried if i was there too.sometimes i wish i was back in SC with them going through the happy times and crying times with them.i miss SYF,all the long hard practices,funny times,backstage chatter,hogging of the big SC toilets to prepare.too bad there's no maddcap this year.and aries teo is wayy sweet,i was talking to her bout all these i miss handbells stuff and she told me this whole long sweet and intelligent speech.haha.LOVES.i'll be waiting:)pictures
photos from fri and today.the cell thinks i'm going the emo look,carol thinks my bangs look like rachel yamagata's and i think i look weird with bangs!
It's like a last chance
For a first dance
You're a sunrise
Can't somehow exist
perfect prom queen ;
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
got home early for once today.the NINIs got presents.thanks lovelies for everything though i'll change one of it but it's really sweet of you guys,i really appreciated everything:)i lovelovelove all of you:)
pictures
i found loads of old photos off rae's friendster that she didnt bother to send to anyone.haha.
camwhoring sessions.SL trips.twohill wannabes.washing up in the toilet after chocolate bonanza.exam stress.
lovelies you guys make my day everyday:)LOVES.ohh i just remembered rachel's laggy comment that day when she suddenly realized that i had dimples after knowing me for like over a year!and after all that camwhoring sessions.tsktsk.anyway,stop being emo dear.SMILE:)
Hey girl you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.
Cover up with make up in the mirror
tell yourself it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone and then he swears he loves you.
Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.
A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down.
I see the way you go and say your right again,
say your right again
heed my lecture
Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down a new life she has.
One day she will tell you that she has had enough
its coming round again.
Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the grown?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has.
Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough
perfect prom queen ;
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
got my choc fudge brownie fix today and i'm a happy girl:)ben&jerry's free cone day today:)went for subway after that-cold cut trio wrap:)i realized the amount of money i spend on food and how much i eat-ALOT,way too much for my own good and for my own pocket.haha.and i cant believe my gramma still asks me if i'm eating too little or something when i eat so much!
i think i was on a highhh today.i started singing with ruth and we started singing to rachel to cheer her up then after school,we were camwhoring again and i started singing with rachel staring wide-eyed at me,she must have thought i was off my rocker.haha.the camwhoring started after school with math being cancelled today:)i guess it alleviated some people's stress levels and brought people on a high and happy again:)therefore camwhoring's good for you!
yesterday
no SL!went to vivo with jayne and we went to the new marche for rosti!the new marche is really nice,we sat at the country kitchen-ish side,it has a nice cosy feel.we should try sitting by the windows next time!Caught Nada Sou Sou after that,it's quite a touching show and jayne cried!
came home and spent the whole night putting up the photowall in my room.it's FINALLY up after all that empty talk/procrastination for a veryveryvery long time.haha.i realized the NINIs take LOTS of photos,they cover almost half of it?and it's only part of the manymany that we took.the wall's very colourful now,it's lacking of some black&white and sepia-tone loving photos.more B&W photos!
PHOTOWALL!try to spot yourself there!try to spot the spastic photos of people somewhere in there.if you're there then you're special:)
i thank god for all of them cause it's friends like these,that you know what love is.i lovelovelove all of you:)
suddenly,i just remembered what he said long time ago,before he left for US-take the risk-cause if you take the risk,you might have regrets in future but there's so much more to come.if you dont take the risk and try,you will definitely regret.maybe i took your advice and now i'm having regrets but i miss you friend,i wish you were here.you were like the older brother i never had.pictures
marche!jayne!ruth and rae!photowall!OTH!
today-camwhoring!
fly me away on an airplanei just want to see you
when you're all alone
i just want to catch you if i can
i just want to be there when the morning light explodes
on your face it radiates
i can't escape
i love you 'til the end
i just want to tell you
nothing you dont want to hear
all i want is for you to say,
"oh, why dont you just take me where i've never been before?
i know you want to hear me catch my breath"
i love you 'til the end
i love you 'til the end
i just want to be there
when you're caught in the rain
i just want to see you laughter cry
i just want to feel you when the night puts on its cloak
im lost for words
don't tell me
'cause all i can say
i love you 'til the end
i love you 'til the endi think this song is real sweet.
perfect prom queen ;
Sunday, April 15, 2007
i just got back from dinner at the table barbeque place and i feel bloated from all the food.and table barbeque reminds me of the talk we had at food republic that day,we can all go down to marina south for dinner together and observe people,you can tell alot about them.haha.
friday
woke up with swollen eyes and really awful sore throat.i was so tempted to stay home the whole day and sleep in but slept in for a while more before dragging myself to the doctor's and school after that though i went to school late.it felt good yet weird to be out of school in the morning cause i didnt feel a need to rush to school and reach there early in the morning,just taking my own sweet time to reach there.how i wish every morning was like that,no more waking up at 6 in the morn!but it just seems out of the norm.haha.i know i'm contradicting myself!
i felt so groggy in school the whole day and i kept lying on the table and falling asleep though the table was cold,hard and uncomfortable!i was so wishing i didnt promise b&j in the morn that i would come to school,i could have been home in bed and sleeping or watching OTH!
Headed for food republic after school with jayne and lem.ate hokkien mee:)had to go through the long tedious task of peeling the prawns with the chopsticks again and that sparked off our whole talk bout going to marina south and observing people.
Went back to school for music fest.This year's new category-MTV-was really good.The MTVs were interesting.This year's GOH wasnt as nice as last year's-SHAN WEE!
saturday
went to meet b&j at the national library to do SIP.i was bored to death by all the information in the books and i think my lids were drooping the whole time while trying to process the information in my head and trying to work fast so as to get out of that place fast.
Our plans to watch Nada Sou Sou failed again and i went for tuition instead.
and did you realize i've been referring to jayne and bernice as b&j like ben and jerry's.ohman i feel like eating ben&jerry's now!
my memorycard reader is so irritating.i tried to load pictures from the phone's SD card and it deleted some photos in it.and there were some nice photos and funny photos in there including one of jayne acting retarded:)haha.i didnt even get to load them onto the computer!
i finally got down to replying all the testis that i owed since before review week!
speaking of review week,thank god i managed to pass the papers that have been returned so far.i'm just glad for passing them:)
pictures
some off steph's blog
pictures from steph's party and friday
perhaps we all give the best of our hearts uncritically to those who hardly think about us in return.sometimes people disappoint you,sometimes they surprise you but you never really get to know them till you listen for what's in their hearts.OTH2.i'm finally starting on season 2:)i managed to keep my hands off it till now!
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be your love suicide
and I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be your love suicide
and I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
I've been dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, Remembered the things that you said
perfect prom queen ;
Thursday, April 12, 2007
sorry stephy,PS-ed you today:(i'll meet you soon and make up for it.
Was supposed to go stephy's house but didnt in the end cause it was raining heavily so no tanning,dvd and chatting session:( After the last session of electives(YAYNESS!no more electives!),which was like 5 minutes,went to town with jayne and ate amanogawa instead.jap food makes me happy:)walked around with jayne and bernini went home cause their soccer match was cancelled.Luckily i brought flops today if not my shoes and socks would be soaking wet!
The sore throat worsened today,my eyes are turning red and swollen now and my whole body aches.i think imma fall sick soon.jayne and i are both down with sore throats at the same time and sore throats suck big time.
the emo periods have been lasting longer lately and the days have been eratic.one moment it's all good,i'm all good,the next it'll all be the direct opposite.sigh.
if only i didnt have to bring the flops,i wouldnt have brought that thing.it was like some constant reminder.sometimes i wish i never knew you.
i found the music and lyrics song!
I’ve been living with a shadow overhead
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on
I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I’ve been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh
I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere
I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I’m open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping you’ll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end
perfect prom queen ;
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUTH CHEE!hello tablemate!hope you enjoyed your day today though it's a school day,no time to celebrate.we shall go for more lunches and of course-NYNY AND MUDPIES!you must go and try the IC mudpies one day kay!they're really GOOD!love you dear:)
i baked double chocolate cookies yesterday and i didnt cheat this time by using the biscuit mix,i made
FROM SCRATCH kay,they turned out alright i guess but they could be better!
GUESS WHAT?RM'S FINALLY OVER!LIKE FINALLY!YAYNESS!it was alright but i was really nervous before and during the presentation luckily i had the group there-b,lem&jingjing-if not i think i would have freaked out more.i dont know if i stammered my way through or whatever the bottomline is,it's finally
over.However,I'm sure the judges loved Sir Bernicholas Stern enough to bring us to the next round right.we promise to make it muchmuchMUCH better:)
Came home early today and watched
A Walk To Remember again
MANDY MOORE!SHANE WEST!shane west's good as landon.the movie's real sweet yet really sad too:(
and after that,i flipped to some channel showing some korean show and that guy was such an ass to the girl.the irony eh.one is so sweet and the next,direct opposite.
i'm down with a sore throat now.i hope it doesnt get worse tomorrow.gahh.sore throats suck wayy bad.
i guess nothing else matters as long as you're happy.that's all that matters.There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write
over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But you sing to me over and over and over again
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope
Sing to me the song of the stars
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have
for me over again
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope
I give you my destiny
I'm giving you all of me
I want your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope
Ninety miles outside Chicago
Can't stop driving
I don't know why
So many questions
I need an answer
Two years and later
You're still on my mind
Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart?
Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I was meant for you
Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
Or what the wind says when she cries?
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninety-seventh time tonight
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I was meant for you
Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you
I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watched the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me tonight?
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I was meant for you
Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended so soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside
Was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment that I saw you cry
cry..moment that I saw you cry
It was late in september
And I've seen you before
You were always the cold one
But i was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside
Was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
In places no one would find
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside
Was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you crya walk to remember soundtrack songs are stuck in my head!
perfect prom queen ;
Monday, April 09, 2007
I OHSOMALUATED MYSELF TODAY!IT WAS BADDDDD.
got back our bio paper,thank god i passed it:)all those stressing over the paper didnt go to waste eh.haha.
today was the last day of SL.we're finally SL-free:)no more going down to havelock or tiong bahru,no more long bus rides and train rides.but i'm gonna miss the funny things the kids always do.
everything just came rushing back today
tomorrow and wednesday are gonna be crazycrazy RM-crazy days and i feel so inadequate from the lack of preparation and practice we have and it's on wednesday!
i miss
i miss crapping with you and hearing your spastic 'good nights' and 'G'day'.
I just talked to you online and i realized how much i miss seeing you in school,hugging you during breaks and writing postcards back and forth.
i miss talking to you every week and listening bout your week and all the funny stories bout the girls chasing you.i miss you.now,we've really drifted after you've gone over there.
i miss the you you were and if i could turn back time,i would have hugged you tight one last time and really cherish the time we had.
i miss reading your messages that never fail to put a smile onto my face,make me happy and cheer me up.you were the only one who ever did that and making me happy each and every time.
even though i'll be seeing you soon but i still miss you and i guess life over the past few years would really be different without you.
just some of the different people i miss
i never meant to hurt you.
that doesnt matter cause in the end,it all hurts just the same.
OTH.i feel like watching OTH but i'm uber tired,aftereffects of all the early waking up in the morning and the long days out from the past few days.
Nothing hurts as bad as this does
i dont wanna believe in those words anymore
cause i dont think you even meant it
you hurt the most
We watch the season pull up its own stakes,
And catch the last weekend of the last week,
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced.
Another sun soaked season fades away.
Invitation only grand farewells.
Crash the best one, of the best ones.
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed, too early to say goodnight.
perfect prom queen ;
Sunday, April 08, 2007
HAPPY EASTER!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPH!
enjoy your day and i had fun at your party:)i decided to use orange cause you were wearing an orange dress at your party.haha.
it's been a packed week but
REVIEW WEEK'S OVER!LIKE FINALLY!
woke up real early today and rushed to church to help out at the children easter service thingy for first and second service,we had to walk about in jewish costumes and all.it was quite fun but tiring and i had to miss seventh heaven:(
sorry mich i couldnt come for CHC's easter service though i wished i had the chance to go down cause their christmas and easter services are always really good.
thursday
FINAL paper was OVER and we did the rachel bday prank.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL!
hope you loved the nutella and THANKS for getting the nutella on me as well eh.hope you had an UNFORGETTABLE SWEET SIXTEEN this year though everything happened a day late:)and i love you though you PS me for your JEMJEM.
we headed down to NewYorkNewYork for Tablemates' outing:)Bernice,i know you wished we went there a day later then you'll be ohsojealous.haha.Lunch was fab-lasagne,pizza,huge mushroom swiss,mudpie plus lem's lame jokes,crapping and all the talks.The lasagne there is wayy good and MUDPIE-chocolate and ice cream-sweet!
After that,Jayne came to meet us and we headed down to vivo without lem.i bought my satin top from zara:)okay.i admit imma sucker for all these satin-y stuff.haha.and jayne got her tank and we were helping ruth in her desperate search for her black dress,we were searching high and low for the perfect one!we even went all the way back to MS but they didnt have it.
friday
GOOD FRIDAY!
thank you for dying on the cross for me
one thing i ask is to dwell in your house forever
Got PS-ed BIG TIME today.went to meet some of the class people for lunch and movie before heading down to town for steph's party.Met up with loads of people like lala,linyu,emelyn,steph,eileen and manymanymore.ohman.em is leaving for Boston in september to study at andover.i just realized that many people are leaving for US or already there studying at hotchkiss or choate.and she thinks steph's 10cm heels empower her.that funny girl.haha.i got my postcard from one of my favourite girls:)i think i'll mail your reply back to you this time if not you'll take ages to receive it.haha.
saturday
woke up real early to rush down to school to complete RM and the next few days are gonna be RM-packed and bernice is berNICHOLAS STERN.haha.
After that,rushed down to church for pris' children easter service thingy rehearsal before rushing back down to tuition and arab street to get the cloth.i think the arab street people were out to cheat money kay.initially,they were charging like twice the normal price.like wth.so obviously the price reduction session began.haha.
pictures
-some off steph's blog
NYNY:) chee thinks she's facing some paparazzi.haha:) FOOD! chee and i MUDPIE! lem:)
Steph!
em chew who's leaving for boston soon:(
lala:)i'll reply soon!
em and lala
aries!
lala and steph
EASTER!we look weird in these costume but whatever.it's easter.and pris,you did a great job:)
i wish i could but i cant
i wish it would just be gone like that
it has come to a point where too much pain has made me numb.
and i dont know if what i know is really what it is anymore
they said wear your heart on your sleeve i wish i didnt cause it hurts too much to do that
and you've torn it apart
perfect prom queen ;
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
i'm so screwed for my tests.gahh.on the bright side,it's FOUR DOWN,three more to go:)
it's been stress high these few days but with lots of laughing sessions.the airport has become the place for relieving all the stress with 2 hour long talking and laughing sessions.haha.of course bernini i know you already got on a highhh wayy early on monday morning:)haha.
i got a scare yesterday when i found out my phone can't function properly.i cant receive messages but i can send out and call.weird.sorry to those people who i didnt reply or couldnt reach me,like jayne who thought i died on her AGAIN and i also thought that she died on me AGAIN.haha.sorry.it's the network!and i wasted my whole yesterday afternoon shuttling between nokia and singtel just to get the phone fixed.gahh.and the singtel people were wayy nice and helpful as compared to the nokia people who were like complete opposites.gahh.
and i should be mugging my head off like everyone else instead of being here,in front of the comp.
yesterday when i realized ______________,i just felt this overwhelming emotion inside and i dont like it.i dont like the feeling of feeling this vulnerable.
all the happiness and laughter just numbs everything
When you feel so close to some resolve
And you write the words you were writing for
But your courage gets dissolved
Into what, I don't know...
When you feel that way again
You have to stop your thinking
And think of what you're here for
And let the rest of your feelings go
You've got to find your balance
You've got to realize
You've got to try to find what's right before your eyes
And if you find you've fallen
And all your grace is gone
Just scream for me and I'll be what you're falling on
When you feel so close to some resolve
And you say the things that you're standing for
Don't let your courage get dissolved
Cause it's then that the fear grows
Just give me the word and I'll be there for you
perfect prom queen ;
Sunday, April 01, 2007
hey lovely
you never know unless you try right
have faith in yourself
and you know i have faith in you too:)
I'm stuck at home with nothing much to eat now.gahh.just watched seventh heaven:)it's really nice and i cant believe it's been running for so many seasons.ohh i kept to the OTH thingy,i've not touched OTH 2 a single time:( haha.
i wanna hear the smile in your voice
Review week's starting tomorrow and i'm really scared.it's pretty overwhelming with all seven exams taking place one after another.i so cant wait for them to be over.
lord please help me get through this crucial week as you have all the past few weeks.guide me through the week and i place my trust in you cause your promises never fail:)
You left something undone, it's now your rerun
It's the one you can't erase
You should have made it right, so you wouldn't have to fight
To put a smile back on your face
You fall away from your past
But it's following you
You fall away
Something I've done that I can't outrun
Maybe you should wait maybe you should run
But there's something you've said that can't be undone
perfect prom queen ;
