Friday, March 30, 2007
sports day today and it was pretty alright just really mundane not the usual sports day mood and it was really humid and all after the rain.i wasnt planning to go down for tuition and go tomorrow or something but our dinner plans fell through and i rushed down for tuition last minute and i ended up wayy late,later than the usual late.OOPS.but the teacher just asked me bout the red streaks on my hair from sports day instead.hahah.
grabbed some sushi after lesson.SUSHI:)before walking around with liz helping her find the perfect present for her mum which we eventually did,in record time too:)haha.while we were shopping,we kept hearing all those songs from a few years back like primary school days and both of us subconciously followed along with the songs.haha.
Sometimes I run
sometimes I hide
Sometimes Im scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
Fate fell short this time
Your smile fades in the summer
Place your hand in mine
I’ll leave when I wanna
it was like a walk down memory lane man.haha.
okay.imma go sleep.i'm dead tired and i feel like i'm gonna fall sick or something.gahh.
Coz i cant wait another minute
As my sunlight slips away
Hello, why cant you help me?
You have something that i need
It comes somewhere from deep inside you
You just have to find the key
Time it has and time will tell
perfect prom queen ;
Thursday, March 29, 2007
The week has been pretty alright but school's killing me bit by bit.it just gets so draggy after a while.
stayed at home on tues due to cramps again.gahh.but on the otherhand,i managed to finish my One Tree Hill season 1:)i promise not to start on OTH season 2 till after review week though i hope i have the willpower to do it cause it's sitting on my table calling out my name.TEMPTATION ALERT!haha.and stephy,yes,i've learnt to love nathan the way you do now,i'm a nate convert!haha.he's really sweet in OTH though in the beginning i didnt like him cause he was wayy mean to peyton when he was with her but when he's with haley now,he's real sweet.
N:my heart says just forget about your pride you idiot.you love this girl and even if you catch pneumonia,your ass is gonna stand out here in the rain until you convince her to forgive you.
N:It freaks me out a bit because obviously this whole thing with us means a lot to you.i just dont want to do anything to pressure you or drive you away though sometimes i cant help it.just like i cant help that i fell in love with you cause i did.i love you haley.it scares me a bit.there it is.
real sweet.haha.
i gave you my heart that's all that i can give to you and if that's not enough for you then i'm not enough for you.
OTH:)sheesh.i'm on such an OTH craze.haha.
Went for piano today and i was early cause it rained so i took the bus-bus route which is more efficient than the walk-bus route,which translates to no emo walks in the rain:( haha.walking into the gates of the block of apartments,i saw Aden jumping into puddles,having fun.I miss jumping into puddles during the rainy days as a kid but no more of those days,it's grow-up time.anyway,they're moving to england soon which means no more telok kurau on thursdays:(
Life were living on a string
You never know the kind of heat or happiness it brings
and when you feel you hit the ground
you know the walls around you
they start to crumble down
then you hit me like the morning sun
and i dont know where im caught in the middle
then you hit me like the morning sun
and i dont know where ive been or where ive gone
only where im going.
perfect prom queen ;
Sunday, March 25, 2007
I'm stuck at home with cramps now.wayy bad.worst of the lot.gahhh.i was supposed to do choir today but this had to come up so no more choir duty:(,at least i did one week-last week:)but you get a good workout doing choir duty with all the jumping around.stayed home and had One Tree Hill for company:)
yesterday
woke up feeling emo and sad but i dont know why.hahah.maybe the monday blues have become the saturday blues.haha.pretty slack day then met up with bernice for SOUP SPOON!:)had my beef goulash and took photos of bernini which she thinks is unglam.OOPS.haha.sat there talking till we had to go off for the movie and we met yuan bo at the door of the theatre,he didnt go in cause they didnt say they were sitting our theatre.haha.we were waiting for the movie to start while reciting god bless SOMEONE.haha.the movie was alright i guess.
i finally managed to load pictures from the phone to the comp.okay slow i know.okay.imma go for some godivas,nothing to make cramps feel better than chocolates:)
pictures:)
last year-Jayne Bernice(do you realize both your initials together is JB?)-, SC tee,soup spoon:),B,liz
i heart this photo.i love blue skies and clouds
shades of white and blue fly me awayi wish i knew but i dont
now we've become what we talked about long before
somehow inside,i feel something inexplicable
when it comes
i'll let you know
perfect prom queen ;
Friday, March 23, 2007
i'm wayy tired.long day today.got back our physics and i failed:(sigh:(it doesnt get any better does it.hung around school before RM started and it became FASH MAG DAY!we were flipping through all the fash mags around.
sorry liz was late for tuition.blame it on RM:( luckily the bus trip on 48 was fast like 20 mins?compared to 197 which is like 50 mins though the wait was much longer.
thanks liz for waiting at the bus stop for me though i know deepdeepdown in your heart,you just wanted to pon tuition though you keep denying it.tsktsk.but i still love you all the same:)
yesterday
longer day.school,piano then headed to town to meet carol to look for her dress.instead,found many new stuff that i so wanna buy,shouldnt go out with carol too often cause we always find loads of nice stuff to buy everytime we go out.in the end,carol got a top instead of a dress.that girl with her pretty longchamp bag brightened up my day:)
we bused down to bukit merah for dinner with the rest and choir prac.i was way tired during practice and slept the whole way home.
ohh went to get our 7-11 fix during lit and kenrick broke a backrest of a chair.like when he sat down,'piak',both jayne and i thought he broke the leg but he was still sitting upright all fine.haha.
some pictures from the past weeks.i'm too lazy to do collages so they'll come out like that
and the world's moving around on black and white film.
My intuition knows no doubt I could
Lose my way on this merry-go-round
if all else fails
just remember that its the same stars that shine above you and me
perfect prom queen ;
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
nobody told me it would feel this horrid.
well I shoulda known better and I did
I should have listened but ohh well
and now the memories are but the lines on my palms of my hands
can you tell me this much? oh do tell
I remember the conversations
pressed up against that Canadian night sky
like l could lean out my window
and recall what it feels like to be that high
i wish you were a stranger i could disengage
perfect prom queen ;
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
hello friend sorry i couldnt meet up today.sorry for the answer that you didnt want to hear.everything just isnt right now.
i'm so tired.took a long train ride back from buona vista and slept the whole way back,kept nodding off wayy many times and it's so malu but i couldnt bring myself to peel my eyes open and keep awake.
no SL on monday,but finished up the experiments.gotta rush out the proposal.gahh.but it's ending soon!THANK GOD.say goodbye to RM friday afternoons.
bernini is wayy gay,she's stuck onto the pop!goes my heart song from music&lyrics!but she's into PB and WWM too!eh how can you be into something so cheesy yet be into something so HOT at the same time?haha.
As happens sometimes,a moment settled and hovered and remained for much more than a moment and sound stopped and movement stopped for much,much more than a moment and then the moment is gone
OTH:)
watched stomp the yard last week,it's pretty good.dancing was awesome,the two frat groups sure can dance.columbus short is not bad as the lead and there's this guy who looks like ferdinand in the show.
The setting sunset says the day is through
If only we knew...
And we all sit around here in our home town
Listen to the waves as they all crash down
And watch the fire as it slowly burns away
Glowing embers fly across the sky your
Here by my side, in my summer, our last summer
The world passes by in my summer, our last summer
The light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other
I let you watch it all, the view from our last summer
The view from our last summer...
We trace the sun across the sky
And we laugh till we cry
Always so hard to say goodbye
And we all sit round here in our home town
It's so good like this, these are times we'll miss
The memories, I hope will never fade
Glowing embers fly across the sky your
Here by my side, in my summer, our last summer
The world passes by in my summer, our last summer
The light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other
I let you watch it all, the view through our last summer
The view from our last summer...
I would stop time to stay with you
I would stop time so we don't move
I would stop time
I would stop time
I would stop time to keep you
Here by my side, in my summer, our last summer
The world passes by in my summer, our last summer
The light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other
I let you watch it all, the view from our last summer
your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
perfect prom queen ;
Sunday, March 18, 2007
it's been an insanely packed,squashed up/squeezing into cars,crazy,fruitful in some ways yet unfruitful in some ways,pretty unaccomplished,tiring,draining week.The break i wanted/needed was gone.It's wayyyy worse than a normal school week.everything just comes one after another or clashing with each other.The only saving grace was One Tree Hill and Godivas:)thank you for the Godivas:)
No Rachael Yamagata
or Tristan Prettyman
this weekend:(
instead,had a taste of yearly countdown again,jumping around and a good worship session.
fell in love with empty apartment again after watching one tree hill
Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down
As I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes
You forget where the heart is
Answer no to these questions
Let her go, learn a lesson
It's not me, you're not listening
Now, can't you see something's missing
You forget where the heart is
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay
Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life?
What's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart is
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay
It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay
It's okay
It's okay
maybe i dont understand
how difficult it could be
if you did
why couldnt you voice everything out
and make it all fine
perfect prom queen ;
Sunday, March 11, 2007
went over to the bestie's for dinner by the poolside last night.romantic eh.ahhaha.sat there eating and talking for really long time and that girl was in HER yaya-happy highhh mood.
hey dear,i had a great time with you last night:)and always keeping me ohsoentertained with your bimbotic antics.haha.and we kept to our resolution.SIX YEAR AND COUNTING LOVE!LOVES.
gonna be a movie/vcd marathon this week,that's what i call a break:)brought back One Tree Hill seasons 1&2 and other vcds back from her place,what's lacking is The OC.
How can she fall for you if you're not there to catch her?
Maybe you have the Summer flu and you should take some Annabiotics.
If it's a Ryan problem, it's a Cohen problem.
Just because you're leaving doesn't mean I'm letting you go.
I know. I'm just doing that thing where I pretend I don't and I have to use a lot of descriptive insults to give voice to my inner pain.
You can't ruin Chrismukkah. It's got twice the resistance of any normal holiday.
Its kinda hard to apologise if I don't know what it is I'm apologising for.
Well its kinda hard to forgive you if you don't know what you're supposed to be apologising for.
Damn it! I'm being sarcastic.
So, sarcasm's like breathing for you.
Yeah, Summer's dad thinks sarcasm is a sign of weakness.
Sounds like a smart man.
Sometimes you make it hard to hate you.
I know, it's part of my charm.
And sometimes you make it easy.
If all we're gonna do is send them to their room and make them do homework, what are they going to learn?
Their homework.
OC!SETH AND SUMMER!
even though there's no seth,summer,ryan and marissa to accompany me here,i guess i'll just make do with lucas,brooke,nathan,hayley and peyton:)
okay i know this is sorta random but i love polaroids!i guess jayne sorta knows that already.haha.they're really nice!i want a polaroid cam!
RASCAL FLATTS:)
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ it
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do
perfect prom queen ;
Saturday, March 10, 2007
went for the play last night.it was quite good,pretty amusing and interesting.sorry jayne,yes i was late but we still reached there early in the end:)haha.no pictures cause i couldnt fit the camera into the clutch.haha.so the few pictures that we have are with jayne.i want them jaynebird:)
i miss the SC girls
i miss postcards with yellowcard lyrics:)
i miss partner and the fried mars bars sessions!
i miss fried mars bars
i miss just stoning and sitting beside the french windows
i miss the talks at the bench and the amphi
i miss the bestie
i miss starbucks sessions
i miss hilarious times in the gym
i miss hanging around the poolside with you trying to get things done but failing horribly or doing nothing at all
i miss our shopping sprees/retail therapy:)
i miss sitting next to you in silence yet enjoying the silence
i miss the esplanade rooftop
i miss you
i miss camwhoring.heh.
i miss having all the time in the world
i miss last year's slackness
i miss after-school outings almost everyday
i miss sleepovers-pulling allnighters laughing and talking about everything
turning around
walking away
the pain and sadness just wash over me again
is there anything to make me immune to the pain
perfect prom queen ;
Friday, March 09, 2007
tonight was bittersweet.
made me wish how i could turn back time wayyy back
I believe in memories
They look so so pretty when I sleep
perfect prom queen ;
Thursday, March 08, 2007
totally screwed the physics test today.
it's been a long and horrible week.gahh.
made myself a teeny weeny bit better by having the next best thing next to retail therapy,brownies and ice-cream.chocolate and ice cream haven.haha.chee had waffles and ice-cream instead.we gotta go out to newyorknewyork for our other meal with lem!he just reminded me that day.haha.
MOMO B,when are we gonna have our baking spree?chee wants to join in too!she's gonna make brownies,you cookies and me cheesecake.we'll be eating so much!all the baking goodness!haha.
i decided to pon third period today cause the ankles felt weird and i should listen to ruth's advice.anyway she's the auntie so she's older so she should know better so i should listen to her right JAYNE?haha.i want a new pair of ankles so i can do anything and everything without all this weird occasional pain!okay it sounds weird but i really do.gahh.
suddenly i feel vulnerable to the world,i dont know why.suddenly i just feel like keeping all thoughts and rantings to myself and maybe close friends.should i?should i move over to xanga lock or a private livejournal or just save all that trouble and somehow get the code from someone to password-protect this blog?
YELLOWCARD:)
Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life, what's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart is
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
i hope you're happy now cause i really hope that you are the it'll be worth all the pain
More than anything Lord,i need you to hold my hand tight as i pick myself up.
perfect prom queen ;
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
hello sunshine,you brightened up my yesterday:)
got the day off yesterday and finally got around to watching Seducing Mr Perfect!DANIEL HENNEY!haha.it was wayy good,romantic comedies make you laugh your head off yet sweet at the same time.After that,i got pangseh-ed and left alone in town,THANKS EH ALL OF YOU,but luckily the tuition guy asked me to go down earlier.just nice.haha.
DANIEL HENNEY!
jayne,this is for you.you can start your oogling.ahahah.
RM today was retarded.going to collect seawater in the rain,getting shoes all wet and having to come home with uber huge mismatched slippers.haha.
ohman.the march hols are gonna be packed.packed.packed!and just when i
need a break.
a break from everything.gahh.i want a full week break with nothing to do,a whole week free,i just need the time.
i cant wait for april:)hohum.random.haha.ohh.signed up for choir duty for the last two weeks of march,like for the first time in my life.haha.didnt get to do last year's,anyway,it's only once a year and as a network.haha.i think the rest signed up for the whole month.
i dont think i can take it anymore.i'm getting tired from putting on this happy facade,tired from playing this game of pretend.and you're tied together with a smile but you're coming undone
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
Chasing thoughts from a million miles away
Hypnotized as another dawn is breaking
see me through
perfect prom queen ;
Saturday, March 03, 2007
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
yes jayne,i know this is really old but i dont care,i love this song!haha.
got stuck in school yesterday due to the ohsoheavy rain,didnt get to watch a movie.gahh.when it lightened up,we decided to walk out,i think we were a hilarious sight,three people sharing one umbrella and making so much noise.haha.
bernice decided to take the bus with me to bugis since it was raining to take the train.it was freezing cold in the bus with the wet uniforms.
met liz for tuition and the teacher decided to split us up for the retarded debate the class had.
and liz,get well soon love!take care!loves.
i hope we get a break next monday:)
i cant wait for the march hols to come.i need a break.
maybe this is all part of His plan for me and i just gotta lift my burden to Him,place my trust in Him and just laying everything in His hands,in His control.
woke up this morning,okay,afternoon,since it was already 12,a good 11 hour rest after the past few weeks really drained me out,flipped open His word and what He spoke to me was really apt.
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broken promises
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISABEL!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ODELIA!
hope you guys got the results you wanted yesterday:)enjoy your day today!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLEMENT!
enjoy your day!see you around church.
this was supposed to be up on wed-the 28th:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEMUEL!
TABLEMATE!was a good year sitting next to you last year,me and ruth being entertained by your lame jokes and funny ways.haha.
you've been an inspiration to me to start serving in the ministry.(just that i have to look for a ministry to serve in.haha.)
thanks for the passage,i'll keep it in mind:)
hope you had a good time during your birthday!
TABLEMATES OUTING SOON!
LOVES.
found some old photos not uploaded yet.some from cny(off mich's blog.heh.),some from idontknowwhen
pictures
perfect prom queen ;
