Good morning baby I hope I'm gonna make it through another day

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

the weekend was actually good it just went uphill from fri but it all went downhill on monday.weekend kicked off good with liz,chats and all.sat worship was real good you could really feel the presence,came home in the night and got on oreo high then much later in the night it was the chat that made me happy.sun was alright which equates slacking which is not good!but on mon,the mood went downhill,everything just came WHAMBAMBOOM smack in my face,monday blues,exam stress,things and all.

okay.random.

List 10 things you want to say to people ~~but you never will~~
(Don't say who they are)
1.there's so much inside that i want to say to you but it's so difficult to verbalize it out.it seems like the phrase you never think the last time is the last time,always applies to us everytime.i never know when's our last time.why am i always so unprepared everytime.i should know better.you make me smile yet you cause my emoness,i dont know why you still have that effect on me when you're not supposed to affect me this much yet undoubtly,you do.i'm trying to believe whatever she says to convince me but is this me living a lie?it feels like one day we're strangers,the next we're not.is it so difficult?in the words of dashboard confessional,now i know what it's like to have hope dangling on a string cause now it feels something similar to it though there's no hope anymore,it feels like me left hanging here.i'm gonna head up again to where i was fine.

2.i know we havent spoken in a while but the last time we did,it was nice.it was like back then.i miss you.

3.hey,i'm sorry.i didnt intend for anything to end up this way.yknow if i actually did agree to it so as to not hurt you,it wouldnt be a good ending either right.thanks for sticking by me through my bad patch this year.i hope to see you around again soon and things can go back to the way it was though difficult as it may seem.

4.thanks for all the jap food and pizza treats.i dont think my treats to coffee make up for those and especially unable to thank you enough for what a great friend you've been.

5.thank you for always being there and listening despite your own troubles and problems.yknow i'll always be here for you too.loves.

6.i'm proud of you and what you're determined to do though it hurts you.somehow you seem so carefree bout it but i know it still hurts you a little somewhere deep down.you know i'll always be here for you.i'll promise you with the promise too!loves.

7.i miss you and the good ole days together though we rarely meet up now but it still makes me smile whenever i see you and how we always click and talk nonstop whenever we meet up,like picking up from where we left off.and how you're always there for me though not physically present,yes,i feel the love.haha.loves.

8.i have bad dreams and sometimes i wake up crying and feeling all shitty cause you're in the picture.

9.i hope all of you come home soon.loves.

10.you freak me out.

thank you for all the prayers,blessings,encouragements,hugs,chocolates and all throughout this exam period.sometimes i feel like i dont deserve all these and all these wonderful people in my life but i appreciate each and everyone of you.i love yall like how a fat kid loves cake:)

i saw amusing photos.hahha.
my bro just said something damn funny.haha.
okay.two more subjects to go.

sometimes it's hard to pretend it doesnt hurt.why doesnt the situation ever improve.it's tough but i'm on my way back up.

I think we've been here before
I recognize this place
I've seen the marks of confusion
wipe out a single sign of grace
And I don't want to play anymore
Not when the stakes are so high
So before we circle round once more
I'm gonna lay down,
Lay down my pride

Let it go, let it be
Don't waste all your emotion on this
tit-for-tat machine

on the side of me

I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved

Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Yet you choose to be on the side of me
on the side of me

Everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
but you
thank you my friends:)

perfect prom queen ;