funkbananas

2009-06-16T23:57:00.000-07:00

2009-05-11T02:03:00.000-07:00

frolick made my day!a whole tub with lotsa toppings:)

i realized we have a penchant for buying yogurt by takehome packs and ice-cream by the pint and finish up everything on the spot.

2009-04-18T04:14:00.000-07:00

gosh i haven't posted much in a reallyreally long time and so much stuff have happened.too many to post about all actually.been busy with the planning of the zone event tmr,hope everything goes fine:)

been out quite abit with the CG people to spend time with D before he entered army.we had our dim sum and dessert day which involved good food and good company which equates awesome time:) dessert was really good,now we know another place to head to for awesome dessert,other than our usual dessert haunt!
had guitar and jamming sessions in btw and we also had a fun time having a sushi and shave head session at my place.gave him his farewell gift and had fun shaving his hair and trying out weird funny stuff,guess we'll have these funny memories to remember for now.

went out with the Alliance OGLs for a movie the other day before we went for Alliance JTS.gosh it's really cool,didnt expect them to organize it.was reallyreally touched when CD informed me bout time,place etc cause it's really sweet of them to do this!really awesome to meet up with them again,back to good ole orientation times!

Rae's 18th party happened next and though the butter fac ppl screwed up,we managed to salvage it by having it at fullerton boathouse,her ideal place to have it actually.it was good spending time with the girls.rae,dont worry too
much,we had fun and hope you enjoyed it and had one helluva eighteenth!LOVES!

went ice-skating with eloise and poline for feeling fab and it was pretty fun but tiring.it was my first time so spent quite awhile getting used to the new feeling on ice.we were bundled up in our jackets and long pants.quite glad the teacher forced us to find jackets to bring along,it was really chilly!thanks to kelvin for loaning his jacket at the last min.the only downside was the skates had a weird smell to it!

Easter never fails to remind me of how much He has sacrificed for us.cause

"Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.

- John 15:13"

helped out at the kids' good friday service and the kids were uber cute!it was satisfying seeing them happy and singing joyfully in the house of God.The kids' drama production team also outdid themselves this time.Despite only doing four shows,the amount of effort sowed into this was tremendous,judging from what D told me from all the rehearsals he served at.

The main Easter production this year was really good as always and everytime,the part where they re-enact the carrying of the cross really impacts me.P came on gd fri and J came with A and I on sunday.glad all of you could come and hope everyone had an awesome Easter!

PICTURES!

It takes one hope
To make the stars worth reaching for
So reach out for something more

2009-04-11T09:18:00.000-07:00

woohoo!liverpool totally owned blackburn just now!just hope they'll produce good results for the second leg at chelsea!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUTH!and of course,HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY RAE!LOVE BOTH OF YOU!

and goodbye favourite GB see you in 2 weeks time,possibly more tanned and with lotsa stories to tell me:)

Between now and then, till I see you again,
Love, me

2009-03-25T00:19:00.000-07:00

just got back from Bark with the cousins.the march hols were really AWESOMEEEEE!totally loved it though i didnt catch up with a few people cause our schedules were really too packed.

went to msia which was pretty fun and after that outings and meetups with people,met up with s41 ppl to celebrate L's bday,out with MOMO B for sushi buffet,dinner with the alliance and celebrating M's bday.

out to bark today,luckily it didnt rain.D came to pick me up and we biked down to meet the rest and it's been ages since i've been down there and a good few weeks since we last met up.hung out and chill there and i seriously got a shock before i came home but at least it's over!

FB album here

some pictures anyway!

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

2009-03-24T02:10:00.000-07:00

i havent cried in really long and this time,it's because of you and it had to be in school.damn.

2009-03-17T08:58:00.000-07:00

back from msia.it was a really fulfilling trip,in the sense that i learnt quite abit through the fieldtrip and it was mindboggling with all the thinking and reflections needed to be done on this trip.
it's been tiring with all the late nights spent up hanging out and playing.i spent a good portion of my travelling time on the bus sleeping.hahah.

went to kuantan on the first and second day,the hotel/resort was the best out of all the days though the putrajaya five-star one is supposedly the best.fieldtrips was not bad,it was pretty draining cause we were roughing it out at the granite quarry,limestone cave and telok chempedak.

fieldtrips got slightly better when we got into KL cause it was mostly urban fieldwork.KLCC AND KLPAC were one of the nicer places we went to and we got to watch some comedy/magic show at KLPAC,that was one of the slackest days of the trip.and i finally found this new function in my camera for jumpshots!can you believe it?!finally finding it after like 2 years of using it.haha.took quite a few cool jumpshots and najib has a really cool pose in one of them.

we received cable in the rooms so got to watch liverpool thrash man u 4-1 and watch my dear torres and stevieG score awesome goals:) i think because of the match,alot of people were distracted during the debriefs in the various rooms.hahha.

Squeeze so tightly.
I'll be fine, you'll be fine.
This moment seems so long
Don't waste now, precious time
We'll dance inside the song

2009-03-13T21:15:00.000-07:00

llyfrins.CTs are OVER!!i totally hated that period,deprived me of alot of stuff,couldn't go for yay!sentosa,S farewell and sending off,subzone CGCLs gathering on tues.gahh.now it's finally over:)
had a good chilling out session after the papers.just the two of us chilling out and chatting bout anything under the sun for 4-5 hours.really put things into new perspective for me,chatting bout our relationships with friends and family,how god has worked all these awesome stuff into our lives and connected us.

jason mraz was so good live.he remixes songs together.his voice is REALREALREAL GOOD!he totally worked the whole crowd.
he's such a born entertainer.his antics and actions are reallyreally cute.there was one part he actually sang opera,i think his vocal range is super jaw-dropping.imagine,able to hit the high notes of opera,able to imitate the various sounds of the saxophone.you gotta admit he's good:)

the way he interacts with his audience is really cool too.he's really laidback,he has this cool geeky cute image going for him.he's so funny in his own geeky cool way,like without a care in the world just to be able to sing to his heart's content on stage.
i think sandra and i got our money's worth and we were so saturated with contentment after the concert.We had a good time out together:)

saw adrian pang and his family there,we were saying how cool it would be for a family outing,albeit an expensive one.

went for supper with D after that.

rachel yamagata's coming,dont thing i'll be able to afford another one though and i still need to complete my building fund.

alrighty.off to brunch then down to sch to msia!

my heart may fail but You never will.

2009-03-07T01:48:00.000-08:00

JASON MRAZ WAS SO DARN GOOD!more detailed post after CTs!really enjoyed myself and he's SO GOOD LIVE!though i had to sacrifice hanging out at Bark with G and V.

cell was over at my place ytd and ytd's msg was really good,it kinda clicked with my QT the day before and my BS sesh with Nat.double confirmation!
We were all so worried for Dan's results,he gave us a scare.i was seriously worried after reading his msg as well.well,i'm so glad for him and his achievements,yes,despite all the bickering msgs.haha.all of us are really proud of him.i guess through his testimony,i kinda picked up a thing or two too.hahah.BE SPECIFIC and PERSISTENT.the way he shared was really funny though.had a good time hanging out after that with food,good conversation and laughter:)

gosh i've been eating so much chocolate lately,they're difficult to resist esp when you have a whole lot of good ones in the fridge. plus working out really little.bad!

sorry i couldn't accompany you to the gig today though i hope you had an awesome time.
i'm so glad for you and you for achieving such good results:)

help me run this race for You,to be salt and light

2009-03-04T04:45:00.000-08:00

well cross country wasnt so bad,59th is not bad,considering the little training,i was just aiming for below 200.short beaner outing after that:)

when i read everything just now,i was really touched.i'm thankful for you,for being there thru my happiness,laughters,tears,emo-ness,successes,joy,
supporting me and righting my wrongs.your presence:)

JASON MRAZ CONCERT!!
GONNA HAVE A SMASHING GOOOOOOOD TIME!:)
geek in the pink:)

2009-03-02T04:42:00.000-08:00

i'm listening to the song we used to sing
in the car,do you remember,butterfly,early summer
it's playing on repeat
and this solitary moment makes me wanna come back home

but you're so far away from home.

2009-02-26T09:50:00.000-08:00

came back from cell and waiting for my hair to dry now.it's been a super draining day both physically and mentally.loooooooong day.

i've been going over to the west for the third day in a row.today was for CG back at the new condo again,our last one there since S is flying back to aussie next week.After that,went for supper again with S,D and G.it was fun talking to them,all the funny sarcastic comments made and catching up on each other's week.good way to destress after a long day.luckily it's not a school day tmr if not i'll be so tired from sleeping so late but it's cross country tmr,well.no pressure this year:)i'm just gonna leisurely enjoy my last year of cross country in VJ.haha.

gosh i've been eating so much recently,i can't explain the gain in appetite despite the drop in training.bleah.i'm so gonna put on weight from all the pigging out,late night prata suppers and there's still jap buffet tomorrow night.gahh.

went to NUS for some geogy talk and i feel it's pretty interesting and insightful,giving you another perspective of how your future can turn out.After the thing finally ended after all the dragging,met L to get stuff then met D at the FASS canteen.short but awesome time:)

I'm so looking forward to the weekends since now my sat,without training,are so darn awesome:)hello to more sleep!

ohh.went to celebrate winson's 21st in advance last week and it was a good time catching up with the cousins though many were missing cause they're all over the world.i wanna see V soon.
last weekend,we had an Alliance OGL outing and to celebrate J's bday at the same time.gosh it seems like we could go on talking forever,it's pretty cool how orientation threw all of us together and we could click:)

PICTURES!

Laid underneath the stars,
Strung out and feeling brave.
All we are is all so far.

2009-02-20T05:41:00.000-08:00

gosh it's been a longggggg week

was supposed to have ICCmomodate on tuesday but in the end cause of my horrible sore throat,we went to eat turkish food instead:)gosh didnt know such good food existed nearby.haha.

We had CG at this new place,another one of SeanT's condos and it's really super nice!and so quiet cause it's still pretty new.it was at such a far away place,luckily he came to give us a ride after I gave BS to N and after G arrived.If we went by ourselves,we would have been so lost!we ended early and went for prata across the road,it was delicious!took the super long train ride home,luckily there was D and G for company for half the journey if not i would have been bored to death.

it's been a crazy week and school's draining me out ALOT.i wish i could be back to the days where i had so much time to spend on things that are mindless but made me happy and more time for important people.

I can't win your losing fight
All the time.
There is something I see in you.
I want it to be true

2009-02-15T06:32:00.000-08:00

now i'm sick and stuck at home.sucks.i dread all these sudden fevers and last night was one of the worst,my whole body was aching and i kept waking up countless times throughout the night.

valentines started early this year.When we went for cg,the guys were so sweet.At the end of everything,they suddenly said they had a surprise for us and presented each one of us with chocolates!so sweet.totally unexpected from them.DanTay and N really know how to keep a secret since i met them before going for cg and i even gave N BS before that.

Then,it was friendship day in school and i think the most heartwarming part was not the gifts,but reading all the handwritten longlong letters from loved ones,that's my favourite part of it:)
hope yall liked my present,esp those few that resulted in my one hour of sleep.haha.but it was worth it:)

it was followed by OG BBQ in the evening.ALLIANCE!got to meet this buncha fun people again.plus all my members were in their crappy mood again so it was a fun night out.hahah.it was super funny and i got this lovely Vday card from DanC for all the ALLIANCE OGLs.haha.our photo collage:)
we had our individual Heart-to-Heart talks as R1 and R2 and some words the freshmen told me really touched me!then we gave them their present after Mr MIA finally reached.haha.yayness!hope all of them wear it to school:)

ytd was good too.went for our brunch which eventually became lunch by the time we reached,usual lateness from both sides.hahhah.Halfway through,i felt the feverish aches coming,must have been the lack of sleep plus all the Vday choc.thank you for taking care of me till i came home when i fell sick

some pics from CG and OG BBQ:

i'm still in the midst of uploading orientation pics so till then,orientation post wont be up.haha.sorry i'm lazy like that!

The little things

2009-02-14T07:09:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHY!
hey darl,i'm so glad to have known you all these years.times together are always fun,our chilling out sessions and coffee dates,MM/GH world tour sometime soon:)i'm glad we were there for each other through the manymany ups and downs of our lives as we grew up.i love our rare random chats out of nowhere in the middle of the day cause the absurdest things always come out from there.you'll be my favourite bimbo for eternity dear.haha.heart you much.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VAL!HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL!
HOPE YOU VDAY BABIES HAD A GREAT DAY!

to my loved ones:
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

I love you,
Not only for what you are,
But for what I am
When I am with you.

I love you,
Not only for what
You have made of yourself,
But for what
You are making of me.
I love you
For the part of me
That you bring out;
I love you
For putting your hand
Into my heaped-up heart
And passing over
All the foolish, weak things
That you can’t help
Dimly seeing there,
And for drawing out
Into the light
All the beautiful belongings
That no one else had looked
Quite far enough to find.

I love you because you
Are helping me to make
Of the lumber of my life
Not a tavern
But a temple;
Out of the works
Of my every day
Not a reproach
But a song.

I love you
Because you have done
More than any creed
Could have done
To make me good
And more than any fate
Could have done
To make me happy.
You have done it
Without a touch,
Without a word,
Without a sign.
You have done it
By being yourself.
Perhaps that is what
Being a friend means,
After all.”
-Roy Croft

2009-02-12T03:40:00.000-08:00

i was just thinking yesterday how much we've grown over the years.how inevitable that maturity sorta settles in after going through many experiences in lives

i know for a fact,something i struggled with and hated was how you walked away without settling anything,pretending everything was okay when they were not every single time.

i'm so glad i settled my second one better than my first,though they were two completely different situations.at least we could talk it out and understand and it was amicable.

sigh.see la your fault make me emo during our talk last night.

gosh i think i can say goodbye to my sleep tonight,got home at 11 and i still havent started making the vday prez.

2009-02-05T10:24:00.000-08:00

orientation has been pretty fun but draining.okay backtrack to last sat.

The picnic was fun but my back got super sunburnt.i felt so kuku,going there and realizing i forgot to bring the sunglasses in my hurry to leave the house.best.dont even adgere to my own theme.hahha.Thanks everyone for making the time to come down and i really appreciated each and everyone of you friends:)Loved the letters and notes,it's really heartwarming reading the long letters and notes.i'm thankful for all of you:)

rushed home to shower then out again in the night with the couz and LW.Dan came over to pick
me up then went over to LW's place to wait for him.luckily Dan brought along the biker jacket,if not it would have been super cold like the previous time when i rode without the jacket.While waiting,we rode further down to look at the pretty night view of the airport runway.Those two are like speed fanatics on the road,it was like being in initial D on bikes/motogp on the highway,they were reaching like 150km/h on the highway.good thing i only ride pillion and only with those i can trust with my life in their hands.

i wanted to watch the Goodfellas play:) so we went down to timbre at substation but there was a long queue so they decided to head down to timbre at art house.it was somehow closed so we went to Dempsey instead,choosing between House and B&J but eventually,ice-cream won us over:)

YT's super nice,got both me and M tops from his europe trip.bet he got G a present from every place he went.so sweet!hahah.

albums part one here
and part two here

PICTURES!

you make it easy
There's only one thing to do

2009-01-30T04:55:00.000-08:00

CNY was pretty fun but short this year.two days only and we didn't have time to go for our tradition of house hopping that we started last year:( next year alright?:)

had like 5 yushengs this whole entire CNY,hope there isn't more to come cause i'm kinda sick of the taste.haha.
for CNY album click here

went for mich's early 21st bday dinner just now.we had a private room to ourselves and the food at shin kushiya was really good!i got to see carol and minru,whom i havent seen in ages!hope you had a great 21st:)

picnic tmr!:)

I remember all the feelings
And the day they stopped

2009-01-24T07:27:00.000-08:00

CNY celebration in school this year was so un-CNY,the mood wasn't there.i'm so glad the decision was made in the end and i didnt have to stress so much over it.so all the fretting the night before was for nothing.there's too many aspects of my life that i can't forsake,time with loved ones,studies,fellowship,church,serving.this is one area of my life i wouldnt mind giving up for the rest.anw,i'm kinda tired of it and i'm missing my FREE TIME.i think life doesn't just revolve around running but it's about the relationships you've built up and the impact you've left behind.now i've more time for so much stuff,I LIKE:) and i'll keep trusting cause i know the plans You have for me are only to benefit me:)

ytd was like tourist day!we went to the science centre and night safari since we had free tix.LW came to pick me up and we drove to the other end of the island to meet Myrna and SeanT.haven't been to the Science Centre in ages,we were stunned when we stepped to the gantry and the lady asked if we were all above 16.haha.i think she made the whole bunch of us feel young and M felt really happy.haha.felt like a kid all over again looking at all the new and old exhibitions.

we headed down to the Night Safari and YH joined us too.this was the part i was really excited about!haha.cheap thrill!we watched the show then took the tram and stopped at various parts to walk the trails.the guys damn mean,kept disturbing M just cause she was a lil scared at some parts,esp S keep wanting to push M out of the tram,i was the in between so i could resist abit of S pushing so we won't fall out of the tram.we went for supper at Al-ameen.teh peng and pizza murtabak!seriously,we eat too much,they kept thinking of the next meal we'll have during our whole trip!haha.but,great company matters:)

just uploaded the pics on FB and LW going crazy commenting and tagging.at least i dont need to tag.haha.the rest just joined in the crazy commenting esp on S 'macho' pic.hahah.and i'm getting hungry looking at LW's A&W photos from his trip across the causeway thi.we should all petition to bring A&W back!ROOT BEER FLOAT!

i've alr had like the three yusheng for this CNY season!

BEANERS!:)

pseudo cyclops,now they say more like Matrix

they can pole dance

EMO TIME

NANDO POSE:)

LIGHT SABER!

DWAYNE!your guys need counselling!haha.
DISCLAIMER:this wasn't for real.

i became the offering to the croc

random pic!hahha

full albums here-part 1 and part 2

thanks for the ride and tix

2009-01-22T05:12:00.000-08:00

i feel like such a kid but i feel excited bout fri!haha.

gosh my legs feel like lead after continuous training this week.tomorrow will be worse.

i'm glad i had my bean to talk to today after everything.same sentiments:)well major decision to make soon.horrible,but i can't give up any other aspects of my life.

had cell at SeanT's place today.it was a good first cell after we multiplied out,with great word and worship.felt super ministered today especially when i was struggling between my thoughts and decision.felt so weird doing offering msg after everything.we lao-ed yusheng after that.first yusheng of this CNY!
i was surprised and heartened by what my connect grp member sent to me after reaching home.feels like the gap i thought was still there is gone and all the past few weeks of toiling is worth it.makes me happy to be serving:)

when i see you sitting there strumming away,singing away,immersed in your own world.

2009-01-19T04:27:00.000-08:00

loved last week!WEEK OF AFTER SCHOOL ESCAPADES,WEEK WITHOUT CCA.doesnt it feel damn good to have life without cca:)glad i could have more time for friends last week:)havent spend much time with mich gotta find some time before she leaves again.gahh.

went for cell dinner last thurs with the newly multiplied cell.it was our first cell dinner.pretty successful like 80% turnout.we're getting better at this!haha.pretty glad that everyone still made it a point to turn up despite having a hectic day at work or school.nice to see how many new friendships have been forged over the weeks and growing stronger:)

went out for an impromptu beaners lunch last fri.it was FULL ATTENDANCE:)though it was unplanned but nonetheless,it was good beaner-loving time!B&J had to rush back to school so the rest of us decided to head to town and haji.and for the fun of it,we decided to take neoprints since we haven't taken one in ages.they're all with nic so neoprints maybe another time!

after svc,BK and PL subzone stayed back to celebrate their wedding again before they left for their honeymoon.10 of the leaders changed the lyrics of 'anyone else but you' and sang and danced to them.it was really cute!esp JY and DW!then each cell presented them a huge wedding gift each.hope they liked ours:)
we went for lunch then we went down to bugis.the crowd was horrible.we nearly died in the stampede at BV.okay maybe a lil exaggerated but it was horrible to squeeze and geting pushed by so many people and the weather was not doing us any good.HUMAN JAM!At least we completed what we went there for,for N to get new clothes.LW also biked over to join us after his own cell's lunch.we continued walking around till Dan left so we decided to go Mos cause our feet were killing us.We sat there catching up with each other though i really dont know what we had to catch up since we saw each other a few days ago but put us all together,there's bound to be loads of fun.hearing bout LW's crazy night out at 4am,talking bout our Bora and future plans:)

just heard some news that kinda came as a shocker to me despite them already pre-empting me that i'll be taking up those responsibilities.gosh but it's still a different feeling to be sorta have to account for someone and doing sharing.well gotta step out of comfort zone to step up.
stepoutstepup

love the pretty psychedelic stairs:)

under the same open skies but we're in two different worlds
i did let go but i didn't tell you the most important words.

2009-01-13T00:17:00.000-08:00

Well the dreaded Rs are FINALLY over!

BK and Pauline's wedding was last sat!It was all the way at JW church,luckily dan and mich swung by to fetch me in the morning,going there by car is already really long,imagine taking the train.

BK and Pauline looked really good that day,especially Pauline.She was really pretty!Pastor YK was super funny during the matrimony and i guess he can be considered their 'matchmaker' too.DW was being really spastic in the row in front of us.but it was pretty entertaining while waiting for the Matrimony to start.
They had two receptions,one was for family and friends while the other was for PL and BK subzones.We had the reception at the rooftop,nice view:)While waiting for the newlyweds to come up,we celebrated J and T's birthday.there were so many of us wearing purple that day so we became the purple gang.haha.

Dan dropped us off at JP before going to work so we were walking ard JP,then we bumped into the n368 guys sitting at starbucks.whoa they really deserve their best cg award man.hahah.sat down with them and talked for a long while before we decided to train all the way back.didn't know Stan and Kel stayed really nearby too.
The train ride home was funny when they had a revelation bout me,mich,dan and win.everyone kept laughing at the 2 blur kings.and kel is damn blur,he thought he was on duty to fly off that night and havent even packed luggage,yet i saw him in svc with a sheepish grin and said he remembered wrongly,he was flying on sun night.

i love weddings.i think they give you this wonderful feeling and makes you wanna believe in something that's bigger than all of us.Knowing this couple has made an impact in my life and i'm really happy for them on their special day:)Hope they'll be blessed with a blissful marriage!

went out with Sandra and Shawn after school today.had a really fun session with them.we also went for gelare-waffle tuesdays:)and hung out and talked till pretty late.
i love after-school escapades,albeit this time was not with the usual few.but i really miss after-school escapades we used to have every week.That's what fun times and memories are made of!

the cg's damn cute,there i was real scared of the impending terror i was about to face then all of them started spamming msgs to my phone at the same time.hahha.thankful for them man.

thurs dinner:)

the wedding album here

There’s only one thing to Do
Three words for you

There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
You’re the best that I’ve had

2009-01-07T22:46:00.000-08:00

it's amazing how your body can lose fitness so fast.today was horrible,was puking my guts out halfway through the workout.shucks never knew getting back to normal fitness was so tough.there's still so much more to be done.

was semi-productive ytd,managed to get abit done whilst catching up.well.'twas good:)

i feel like making sushi,it's been ages since i made,the last time was for M's bday.

there's so many unglam pics on facebook cause everyone keeps tagging.gahh.feel like taking all off all their albums.hahha.
sneezing my head off,sucks to be falling sick!

when your eyes speak volumes

2009-01-05T21:10:00.000-08:00

We trudged into svc looking like two pandas after chatting uber late into the night.horrible way to look for service.haha.Went for BK subzone Thanksgiving cell after svc yesterday.thankfully we had enough cars to go around so we took raymond's car and even had time for a lunch of bak kut teh:)

This year's drama was really good,really funny.DW led the rest in this HSM dance spoof,which was really funny.and nathan is really capable for a 14 yr old.getting pulled in to join the drama after joining us for only like 3 weeks and pulling everything off.We got to see another side of JR too,he should have gone into this long time ago.Didn't join thanksgiving drama this year cause of the busy schedule but seriously,it's always fun working with them.

there's no doubt why nathan won the best newcomer award for our cell and lilian got the obed edom award for our cell,think she's really deserving of it.i got the paul award.haha.they were creative with the prizes this year.and so proud of N368,they got best CG award and dwayne got best cgl.haha.they really deserve this,saw all the outreach and fellowship events they had planned throughout the year,saw them giving away so many members through the reshuffling and yet growing so much more.

After that,we celebrated jasmine's birthday.really great girl,glad to have her under my connect group:)We got her this cute cookie monster cupcake!then everyone went on camwhore spree and there was some mini obsession with big,black nerd glasses.
trained back and bumped into YP at the train station so we trained home tog.realized he received the same award for his cell too.haha.

learnt quite alot today,things i wanna do in '09-to be faithful in the little things and committed to setting aside more time for those close to heart and those that matter and seeing them happy
reminder to self-pls spend more time on your QT,ST and fellowship:)
andandand with the reminder in my convo with B,i can't wait till the end of march!revival of afterschool escapades:)we miss them so damn much!

it's like you were psychic or something.you called at just the right time,and the way you could turn the whole situation around.one minute i was in tears,the next i was feeling comforted and laughing after hearing how you could put things into a different perspective

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE!

unafraid
what's ahead
you were always there before
my whole world
your design
you are always there
just right behind

2009-01-03T07:31:00.000-08:00

had our countdown at SeanT's place this year.was a better success than last year's.was just thinking how i was gonna lug the potato salad and squeeze with everyone on the train down to his place,thank god LW called and offered a ride down.When we reached there,hung around the kitchen to help them abit,LW had to cook his prawns and Stan still had to cook his carbonara.It was a night of men can cook,Dwayn would be proud of them.hahah.

we played lots of games and twister got everyone so tired yet laughing non-stop.they made us have a gals vs guys kinda thing for one of the twister games so me,sandra,gab and LW played.i dropped out first then sandra.the two pros were LW and Gab,they are so flexible and can contort like no one's business due to their gangly long limbs and it got really funny cause they made them do all the difficult poses,in a bid to challenge them,where they were twisting ard each other in funny and sick positions.

we could see the fireworks from seanT's place and it was really pretty then i did the most bimbotic thing that i think sandra and i would laugh about for the rest of our lives.even when the story was told in the car on the way home,they could just laugh in disbelief.hahah.can't believe joel could still reply me with that straight face and even tone.haha.
seanT and Shawn insisted that we should sing auld lang syne,those funny people.Shawn even sounded drunk with the slurring of speech though it was just the sleepyness kicking in.hahha.

got a ride back from LW and we sent the westies all the way back before going back to the east.had lotsa random and funny talks on the way back to distract ourselves from the sleepyness and our hunger pangs,his actually,at 5 plus in the morning.

couldn't make it for B's party cause of the wake.well i missed seeing part of my beaners that i've missed for the whole of the hols!sorry B!i promise i'll go for your next one:) well even if i did go,i would have ended up looking odd cause i wanted to grab some old chapalang thing,cut it up to go over a tank to suit the theme-Trailer Trash.but i heard no one did,it was mainly casual so lucky i didn't.hahha.

just came back from dinners with the cousins then M and S before meeting up with D,driving round and round while talking.good to talk bout our lives,letting everything out and all the rambling in between.talking to LW bout our weird sleeping nocturnal hours,how we're adjusting back our body clock from 6am and someway to counter our illnesses now.

Thankful for those few that have offered to be there and given support when they heard of what had happened.

it's a sad thing but just glad he's out of the pain he's been suffering for the past months.he'll be in a better place.

2008-12-31T07:38:00.000-08:00

Well the new year's coming.2008 is gonna be over in a flash.Time for a lil time of reflections.

It's been steepsteep learning curve for me this year in all aspects of my life.
I've been learning each step of the way,many foreign things i had to grasp with this year.no doubt,it's been a year of ups and downs.
the year started great with the birthday party before studies and training came in.juggling everything was insane.i struggled quite abit.stepping into a new class was pretty different too,getting to know new classmates better.
completed my arise&build campaign which was a pretty darn good feeling.
there was the beijing trip in june which was pretty much an S41 trip for the geog-ers but still,it was a good experience and getting to know people better and doing retarded stuff together.haha.
the internship at the end of the year was interesting and i really got to learn alot hands-on and i'm grateful to U.Des for letting me intern there and my whole team:)

but somehow this year has been marked with achievements,albeit non-academic ones.managed to achieve two things that came as a surprise to me.the one i was most pleased with was being able to pass though i failed the previous grade like twice.MIRACLE!the other one despite the achievement,i don't really look forward to run more in 2009,i kinda can't wait to stop after march.haha.OOPS.

Time management came to a whole new level this year,it felt like a never-ending rush with jampacked days and no time in between to take a breather.Even though the days may be packed,i still feel like i haven't spent enough time with many loved ones this year.that may be one change i would like to bring into 2009,to be able to spend more time with these people:)

Stepping up in CG wasn't easy,i'm still struggling to manage and learn the new responsibilities this new role requires.I guess i need to be more sensitive to people's needs,to be more in-tune.

Darl and I managed to stick to our 2008 resolution(yes,we made one and stuck to it unlike other years:))and i'm super glad for that and hope it continues manymany years down the road!!

Favourite said i made some progress:) this is deserving of a hell lot of celebration and grins all around since it's something i've been struggling for the past 2 years?haha i was quite surprised when fave told me the other day.i mean i did notice a little change but i didn't expect it to be so significant.i realized maybe i didn't need you as much as i expected myself too.but we drifted i can't help but be sad bout that fact but maybe it'll help.maybe it's not the pain that has weakened over time,rather i had grown stronger to bear it.

It has been a year of challenges and sometimes i do fall.Nevertheless,i'm thankful for the support and friends that have stuck by me through 2008.thank you:)
in no particular order,i'm thankful for:
God
Family+you+you
YOU!-the one who likes to you!you!you!at me.here's one for you.thanks for being the only one who can make me laugh and cry and hurt and all the other emotions in between.your presence makes the difference.
You-thanks for letting me ramble on non-stop everytime.
Beaners+ruth+rae
Thank you my dears for being in my life and bringing much joy to it,especially with the addition of the beaners in 2008:)
Beaners-it has been great fun doing the funniest and weirdest of the weirdest things with yall,like our posing with the ads,playing a fool in toys'r us!
Ruth-Thanks dear for always being there no matter what.
Rae-hi my dear,thanks for all the random caring messages:)stop MIA-ing for long periods of time okay!and you're so cute,coming all the way down to have lunch with me.
Stephy
Thanks darl for always being there and being your bimbotic self and making me laugh.It has always been awesome to have you in my life for the past 7 years.love you deepdeep!
Liz
hey friday night lover!our busy schedules and our chain!haha.gosh.it's always breaking down.well.never mind bout that.thanks so much for always being there and offering a listening ear.i'm glad to be there for you too.love and miss you much!
N109+N18+N368
it's really awesome to see these people in my life.to see how He has impacted their lives and used to lives to change others.They have been great testimonies in my lives and i'm really amazed by the SOT grads amongst them.I'm really grateful to have this bunch of people where we can get high and do our crazy things anywhere and everywhere,at parties,at the beach or hanging out and even on the other end,we can just tone down and get into His presence and enjoy it..love this bunch of you!
ACD
Thanks you two.sometimes i never know but you guys will pop up and do the most surprising things that really brings great comfort to me.on the other hand,you guys can do pretty retarded things at times despite your age eh.thanks ant for the talks despite being overseas and D for always checking on me from time to time just to see how i'm doing.and M!how could i forget you,thanks for being sucha great bubbly person and for making ant happy.you guys make me feel loved.much love!
Po
hello roomie!glad to have known you better through the beijing trip!and i knw you secretly like to camwhore thus the manymany pics during beijing and remember the pics from your BIRTHDAY this year!hahah.nevertheless,thanks for being there and doing retarded things in photos with me:)
Lala
busy beeeeee!i haven't had much chance to meet up with you!but still thanks for being there and our brunches.it's kinda funny how recently,our super long chats can just pop out of nowhere.
Partner
i'm glad i got to meet up with you this year and how we can always talk about whatever whenever despite not meeting up for ages.and all the random messages.here's to an awesome 2009 for us!and i hope we get to do what we wanna do like we talked about!
Tablemates
what happened to our meet-ups?i think we got to like meet up once or twice this year?haha.but really glad to have you two there and just ramble on bout random things at random times.
Dream Team
our second year together!it's been helluva fun experience with the whole bunch of you crazy people.who can forget the late nights and funny things we did in the geog room and sacrificing personal rep to dress up and act toot in the video.haha.it was a different experience from last year too going for newspaper interviews and yall presenting at ACM though i couldnt be there and yall took the first jumpshot of the geog dept for 2008!and i think we've forgotten our soup spoon!hahah.much love to you guys.you guys made slogging over this proj worth it:)
Cross Team
glad to have this bunch of people,always motivating and encouraging each other even when everything gets really tough.
Classmates
glad to have known this bunch of you this year!

i know i can't put down how i feel into words but i'm reallyreally thankful for all of you and love yall deepdeep!
and i know i can't list everyone out here one by one.but yea,if you've ever been a part of my life,just know that i appreciated your presence.LOVE YALL!

i know one disappointment i had this year,was agreeing and going through everything before deciding to leave you.i think it was the best for us,still is now right.i'm sorry i had to put you through everything.i know how it feels like to be high on false hope before crashing right down to the bottom of the pit.i think i shouldnt even have agreed in the first place so the false hope couldn't have settled in.thank you for doing everything you could always to make me happy,i really appreciated everything.i still have the guilt to carry but at least i know that it's the best for us and you don't blame me.this is how they say a ******* ruins a great friendship

Sometimes you go through little blips here and there.But it is the blips that makes you realise how fragile things can be and they make you feel grateful for what you have and appreciate their existence.

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well -Matthew 6:33
This will be the verse that's gonna bring me through 2009.i know time will be tight,things will be difficult.despite all the hecticness in 2009,i'll know where my priorities lies and i'm glad i already got them straight in oct even before 2008 came to an end and 2009 begins.and count my blessings!
for now,thank god for 2008 and here's to a greater 2009,as always!

'08 piccas

Looking forward to the countdown party later-marking the start to 2009!(sorry partner,couldn't make it for yours!)and B's party on fri.

for now,cheers to a new year and Je'Taime my dears!and i love this pretty pic:)

2008-12-28T07:11:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CHRISMUKKAH!

the christmas mood came late but christmas celebrations started pretty early this year.

attended the company's christmas dinner at 211 on friday.it's been a place BBDarl and I have been wanting to check out after we stumbled upon the place.it was really fun,the food was good and interesting games with the company people in our groups.the lucky draw was like everyone has a present each,really generous man.yes one more last week with them.time really flies!no more random walks to ann siang and one hour of happiness everyday and stoning.

On sat,L and E came for the my hope thingy at Dantay's place.charades was the super fun part where it got really hilarious with everything from song titles to dictionary words and chengyus thrown in.then we headed down to town to try and look for christmas stuff.well hope everyone enjoyed themselves:)
but had to miss michpay's 21st party,which was happening at the exact same time.cost-benefit.their pictures look so fun and the whole bunch being their usual retarded self plus the resident camwhores.haha.gosh third party of this year where someone's holding it at MacD's well.we're all young at heart eh.

it was candlelight service that weekend and it was really pretty,like 7000 candles lighting up this dark hall,prolly my favourite service every year.
only light in my darkness

Rushed lotsa last minute christmas shopping and gift making on mon and tues after work.gosh.the crowd is horrible.i won't ever leave my shopping to the last minute again.i miss having all the time in the world to buy and make my gifts like the past couple of christmases.well,despite time constraints and all.hope everyone liked their christmas gifts i made or got for them:)

christmas eve was a whirlwind time.went to work half day then met stephy to exchange our gifts before going to meet some colleagues for lunch at Sun With Moon.had quite alot of fun talking bout stupid stuff and feeling damn slack for a afternoon.haha.After that,met up with po then some of the girls then we went down to CK's chrismas party.i think it was really nice of his fam to have us there and provide us with so much food cause they really had no obligation to.

christmas drama this year was really good,it just keeps getting better every year!had awesome meals the whole day.that's what christmas should be about-love,laughter,good foodddddddddddd:)

had to go back to work on boxing day.long day at work where i was seriously yawning away cause i was so tired.After work,went to meet with some of the cell at starbucks for fellowship.it was pretty great,sitting there talking bout random stuff with them and the results of their christmas giving and such.and BK felt generous that day and gave us all a starbucks treat.had to rush off for A.Treaz dinner party after that,felt kinda bad having to leave them so fast.

Had some random fam friend's dinner party on sat.the food was good as always:)After that,a few of us decided to head down to timbre to hang out.the goodfellas were playing that night and they were reallyreally good!and the two on the electric were really funny.i got a song stuck in my head now!haha.

just got a greeting online from YT all the way from portugal.YT got to watch a match at Anfield too!have fun over in europe man!and talking alot of nonsense and random yet hilarious stuff with LW now.

thanks everyone who have played in part in this lovely christmas of 2008.i received a gift that was the most unexpected but real sweet. And two other really beautiful gifts with the long letters that really touched me.no matter what,I’m thankful for everyone’s gifts,greetings and presence this Christmas.i really appreciate every single one of you: ) love yall!
PICTURES!

the rest of the pics are on FB here

i just can't stop i just can't stop

2008-12-18T23:06:00.000-08:00

the horrible feeling that comes with being sick sucks.though there are perks that come with it like getting more sleep than usual,having the time to talk to best on the phone and lots more.hahah.

gosh i better get well soon for tomorrow,try partner's cheesecake after last week's awesome cupcakes that partner brought all the way down and i can't believe i'm saying this but all the reports due next week.

and i'm itching to cook and bake soon!!

2008-12-13T06:11:00.000-08:00

we've only just begun
just got back from the subzone carnival.since i couldn't help with the drama,had to coordinate the cafe part.coordinating was no easy task this time.thanks to everyone helping out,it was a success:)and we've officially changed 'yan can cook!' to 'YEN CAN COOK!'hahah.we're still waiting to try our tiramisu!

okay partner's forcing me to put a display of SOMEONE'S terrific(NOT!) camera skills up,on my dp too.fineee it's up now.bleah.

okay too much stuff has happened.
last week semed to be leaving-for-japan-and-hong-kong week.all my friends flying off last week seemed to be heading for either one of these places.spent some time with stephy before sending her off to japan.cam came too and i bumped into cherylC cause lo and behold,she was going on the same trip too!so coincidental!
and jon was funny when shu was telling us how she would be happily enjoying her dim sum the next day,he said ya,i'll be sitting in office drinking my coffee and getting a scolding from ML.heh.come jan,i'll miss the bunch of them and our one hour of happiness everyday and my different desserts every week!

ahhh.al got me a really cute present from aus trip last week!the combined cgs did an item for howard's birthday.It was really interesting.they're a really nice family and always let us use the beaumont.I hope howard gets well after going to UK for treatment,at least he gets to visit ian at the same time.It's really amazing how he's overcomed cancer so many times,a real survivor in our midst!

went for an outing to catch up and welcome back Mich and SeanT.went ECP to do eat and do retarded things.it was sparkles mania we were playing with them,forming words then after that,everyone did retarded and embarrassing poses before we went off to bowl and supper.got a ride back from LW,haven't taken his car since he got his bike.had a good chat.

in between,there was s41 chalet,cross farewell,friday night lover! and outings.

somehow this year,i'm not in the christmassy mood at all!there's still the usual christmas rush but not much hype this year though i know christmas is round the corner with all the activities coming up.due to the lack of christmas mood,i haven't done most of my christmas shopping,i'm really late this year!!
well christmas is coming!

too many so some of the albums here:sparklesmania I
sparklesmania II
farewell

what if i fall too hard?

2008-11-26T07:25:00.000-08:00

Went for my first media launch last week,it was a good experience and all.can't talk much bout it here since the editorial's not out yet.maybe more in a private post:)

the first session on sunday for AC was good,The C3 band performed and they sang my favourite song!I realized the keyboardist looks alittle like Joe from FOB.haha.
Then came the ordinanation of the Ps and Rev by Ps Phil.I think it's a great achievement for them and to see how they've come so far in their walk.

Went early for the finale since a crowd was expected.one hour before the start,i was already stuck in overflow but LP and DanTay already reserved seats for me in the main hall.Thanks to DanTay,he managed to sneak me in via the backdoor using ministry passes we kopped off people.hahah.

Awesome session which lasted for like 5 hours.The special performances had O School dancers,JJ Lin coming to perform before his concert next door,Will Liu and other taiwan artistes coming to perform before Dr A.R Bernard went up to speak.That session was the most hyped up and put a good end to AC.I guess through AC,boundaries and comfort zones have been redefined,rising to new levels,managed to think of what new responsibilites are required after rising up to a new role.

we stayed back to celebrate rev YK's birthday and ordinance with the whole zone.while waiting for rev YK to come out,the camwhoring started.it was super funny,everyone got crazy and DanTan started dissing Al bout what Dr bernard said about how everyone was made for a moment like THIS and everyone started joining in.hahha.i think we're all made for moments like these.
When Rev walked in,everyone started singing 'Hero',it was so unrehearsed yet so together!After that,the cake was cut and champagne popped!

had a good heart-to-heart talk with BBDarl the other day.i mean we always talk and stuff but once in a while when we have a heart-to-heart talk it just feels really good.

thank God for Partner for entertaining me while i was at work on mon if not i would have been bored to death cause my outlook inbox at work had some weird quota thingy problem so it restricted alot of things i could do.Partner's internship sounds super fun too!been rushing out reports and flagging stuff these couple of days.gahhh.

Thank you HK Bud for being so sweet and hand carrying my favourite laupobing back!!

In between everything,managed to meet up with quite a few people like Partner,S,L and attend V12 chalet.Still got many more meetups with others this hols
Was on the way to meet B for dinner today and bumped into Cyn on the train.Both of us got a shock so in the end three of us had dinner together and it was good cause we could catch up after so long and hear stories bout derk puchais!(yes,i managed to pick up a thai word or two from the thai pro now!)

Thinking back,He has blessed me in ways i could never have imagined,somehow with Him,things always turn out one step better than i imagined.yea i admit,bad stuff still happen but when the good things happen,they turn out way too damn good.hahah.
like not being able to go for OCIP with the rest though i wish i could split myself into two and go for both!In return,i attended AC with a bunch of my favourite people,going for the launch,spending time with those that matter.

some pictures cause not all are with me.wait till the rest send them in.

Beauty unfolds
Joy overflows
Your grace begins

2008-11-19T10:04:00.000-08:00

even though bus rides with you were rare but i miss those times and when we had a lot to talk.hell i even miss you as a friend.

i received something really sweet in the mail today!THANKS!it really brightened up my day:)

sent the OCIP people off on monday.i was held up at work,luckily they havent fly off when i reached.bought muffins for some of them at the same time.bumped into V&S at the airport as well cause S was flying off.After that,went off for 2/3 tablemates lunch with lem.good catch-up/slacking sesh!

i'm so full from supper!shucks i should remind myself not to have too much supper now that i've cut down on trainings.
attended the INAUGURAL AC today.history makers,world shakers!awesome first night to kickoff everything.the kids from children's ministry were cuteness!my stint with them this year makes me really want to start serving there but time's a limiting factor now and the ability to juggle all the commitments but yea,it's still something to keep in mind for the future.now,gotta focus on CGC.
there were so many people today,like 18000(!!!),so i got stuck in overflow.hmmm.think i'll be stuck in overflow for the next few days since i dont think i can make it there early.hope we'll be able to get the main hall during the weekends!

i really hope it doesn't rain tomorrow and i'm excited!

I see a rising sun
we've only just begun
I'm trusting you with all that i am
I see my life in a different light
In times like these,i should rely more on you and less of me.

2008-11-15T07:37:00.000-08:00

Melt when you smile, dissolve when you laugh.Not mind when you eat my food, and meet you at Rudy's and talk about the day. Talk about your day and laugh at your, your paranoia. I give you tapes you don't even listen to, watch great films, watch terrible films. And tell you about the TV-program I saw the night before, and not laugh at your jokes.Sit on the steps thinking and worry when you're late, and be amazed when you're early.no matter what,I'd go to your party and dance. Be sorry when I'm wrong and happy when you forgive me. Look at your photos and wish I'd known you forever.And wonder who you are, but I accept you anyway.But. I'll tell you the worst of me and try to give you the best of me because you don't deserve any less. Answer your questions when I'd rather not, and tell you the truth when I really don't want to, and try to be honest because I know you prefer it.

i'm really tired.it's been a loooooong week.yea but still discontented with some stuff that i thought i could have done more/better.
cut my hair or not.but it'll be super short this time,like pixie cut.sheesh like so extreme,it's either go all the way or nothing at all.hahah.or if i keep long hair what should i do?bah.i'm itching to do something to my hair.haha.
dont know what got into me this week but went back to listening to davidT's songs.it's been ages since the last chinese one since i only listen to specific ones.hahha.

everyone's hyped up!AC's happening this week!

lace up your shoes
here's how we do
run baby run,dont ever look back

2008-11-06T08:19:00.000-08:00

if you want to talk then just do it.
stop dragging
cause i rather talk it out
i can't help but think of the h-word instinctively when you come into the picture.

There’s a lot that I don’t know
There’s a lot that I’m still learning
When I think I’m letting go
I need a light in the dark as I search for the Resolution

2008-11-05T09:59:00.000-08:00

arise and build wkend's finally over.pledged another amount this time,more than last yr.it was more a step of faith to step out of my comfort zone and not thinking about the amt that was possible for me to give but more of the amount that was impossible and keep trusting that it'll be possible.hope i'll be able to fulfil everything like i did the previous time:)

had the cg gathering at al's place during the weekend.we had a bbq and everything was alr prepared so we saved alot of the hassle that both of us had to plan/do!it was pretty fun and we also had a whole playroom to ourselves-pool table,fooseball table and get this-TWO BOWLING LANES!got to see al's cute nephew too!
JR was nice to cab us like more than half the way back if not it would have been am uber long train ride home.(yes!even longer than buonaV!)it was a funny sight when he was also holding the boy's hand and three of us were running/jaywalking across the four lane road.

went for YT's bday surprise on monday.Some of them kidnapped him after PM at night and transported him down to the secret meeting place tied and blindfolded.G did quite alot of things for him and we did abit too.the NUS united team gave him a liverpool jersey!he was so touched,he cried and gave us a thank you speech!hahah.
Dan was nice enough to offer me a ride home when he finally remembered to bring along an extra helmet.hahha.lucky for a cousin that stays nearby.it's exhilarating to ride on the highway at 130.imagine when they ride at 200+ in malaysia!

Went out with some of the beans doing retarded stuff,hanging around and chatting with milk tea:)then went to spend some time with po on her bday!

it was a good talk with you the other day even though my phone was heating up badly:)

ahhh.too many to upload.the rest of the whole lot on FB!

remind me again,why do i love canon functions?:)

I believe in the promise of faith
no matter what happens
here i am standing
on the hope of your word promised to me

2008-11-03T07:34:00.000-08:00

i made a choice,so that's it.
i dont think my life should just revolve around t**gs
and i have my own priorities in life
and that ain't one of them.

hecticness again!just got back from YT's bday surprise,it was pretty fun.i'm really tired!
riding at 130 down the highway is exhilarating!haha.

2008-10-30T07:59:00.000-07:00

OP's tomorrow.i'm kinda glad for VJ's style of own time own target for PW cause we get to relax and still get things done ahead of time.looking at friends from other JCs with presentations tomorrow too,they're still rushing out their slides now.it ain't no mean feat!

to friends who were concerned bout why i've been going around with a frown recently,i'm good:)thanks for all the concern.maybe i'm just puzzled bout certain stuff and it's bothering me that's all.

i'm glad you could come,open up and tell me everything you're going through even after so long
i'm glad we're still able to talk with ease no matter what.

if only your words mean something and you meant everything you said.
it's too late to regret for the things you wished you did or said but didn't

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late

2008-10-27T19:06:00.000-07:00

went to Equinox for the gramma's bday lunch.it was really good.well they had my favourite salmon so everything's good:)After that,met up with rae to catch up over canele and walking around since i kept postponing all our meetups due to various things.haha.then i finally saw rae's dd.haha.and he knows lala.wow what a small world,it's funny how we're all interconnected somehow.
loved this plaid shirt but it's so expensive!and nope,ima control my spending.i'm not even getting the baby holga i've been eyeing for so long.

THE REDS BEAT CHELSEA!:)(sorry cyn!)

CAN YOU SEE THE JUBILATION ON THEIR FACES?CAN YOU SENSE IT?

XABI ALONSO CAN BE MY SECOND FAVOURITE SPANIARD AT LIVERPOOL,AFTER TORRES!

HSM 3 was good!caught it on opening night with awesome seats!everything was better than the second one.the songs were pretty good.

finally got a new phone over the weekend.was choosing between e66 and e71.tough choice since both were oh-so-pretty and drool-worthy.(sheesh.geek!)
B and J wanted the e71 too.imagine if all three of us were carrying the same phone in school,it'll be so funny.hahha.

guess which one i chose?you'll see it when i see you!haha.

just when you thought you've cleared one or two outings that you owe,another four more outings pop out.more time pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

More stuff came up over the weekend,got the news of stepping up as connectgl.i guess it's good in the sense that i gotta step out of my comfort zone and not remain stagnant in my walk.it'll make me more aware of my own growth and that of those around me.hope i'll be able to cope with all these responsibilities even with a crazily busy schedule.hope everything just comes together nicely.it will cause we believe!hope i'll be able to serve the cgl and cell better this way.

last time,i thought it was easy when you told me you had to step up.yes.i just realized how much responsibilities and what's required of me after talking to you over the phone that day.gosh i feel the pressure now.hmmm.we'll rise up to be better together:)

thanks for all the hilarious talk cause i haven't had such ab-hurting,mind-throbbing laughs in sucha long time.hahha.

gotta be al's PA for the day this week since i got relegated and got lesser stuff to do since i was assumed to still have exams.haha.at least PA gets driven around by the boss though it should be the other way around.hahha.

my card-reader's all wonky so i have no pics from the past week or so.here's some from rae's omnia:

Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
what we have is worth fighting for
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop

Just Walk Away and don't look back
I really wish I could blame you, but I know

2008-10-22T07:54:00.000-07:00

9 convos at one go is crazy.you just spend all your time replying people and getting nothing done.but it was good catching up with some people that i feel like i havent seen or talked to in agessssss:)

there're some people that you haven't met for a long time or rarely meet but everytime you meet,you can lapse into loads of conversations.it's like you were never apart for long or you can just pick up from where we left off.i likeeeeeee the feeling.

I'll never let you go.Don't ever forget
Tell me you'll remember.Forever young
I'll never let you fall.It's not over yet
Stop making plans, start making sense
Don't say that it's easy.The hardest part is leaving.Don't you wonder why
Suddenly, we're all running out of time

2008-10-21T09:21:00.000-07:00

went to school in the morn to settle some OP stuff then the interview thingy,which was pretty screwed on my side i would say.shucks.head out to taka to grab sushi and other food with B before joining some V12 people for lunch.food republic was not a good place to stay long today cause somehow the place caused my allergy reaction to act up.luckily everything started clearing up when we were walking outside.

thereafter,we went to sort of celebrate J's belated birthday and went to nydc.B's pretty amazed that i managed to eat so much this afternoon.i amazed myself too,had like 4 meals in a span of only 8 hours.whoa.i better hope to not feel the effect of all these meals i.e.putting on weight.we lapsed into geekspeak while talking today and it was hilarious.too much OP presentations,diffusion no?haha.

After talking to A,it feels like we're old fogeys.my lovely juniors i saw at sec 1 are all grown up,doing their o levels now.are we growing up too fast?okay i know if my cg ppl see this,i'll be dead cause i always make them feel old and now i'm complaining i feel old.hahha.

you were the only face i'd ever known
everything we had,everything we had is no longer there

2008-10-19T07:26:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JAYNE!

PHOTO FROM FOOD REPUBLIC DAYS!HAHAH.hope you enjoyed your birthday!and liked your bday card:)belated present from us okay?everything i wanna say is in the card:)haha.LOVES!

the OCIP meeting last fri turned out better than expected.it was nice to see everyone getting into the discussion and starting to interact more.now i wish i can go for the OCIP trip with everyone though i know i can't.

the past few days have been packed to the brim,one event after another.it started on a good note,we went for dim sum on thurs then rushed back to school for PW and training.the next few days were almost like that but worse,packed together,every event back to back.
celebrated eloise's bday twice yesterday first with the crossers after uni talk,rushed off for CG,then rushed to meet po to get stuff then dinner with some of the class people for eloise's birthday before leaving early and rushing back to join in the extended fam dinner.

well another packed week ahead-PW,trngs,OCIP,outings,Partner's birthday,Date night,settling cg gathering details and theme.at least there's still some semblance of a social life and all is not lost with all the rush going on.hahah.play hard.the studying hard part needs to be incorporated into my life soon.

the 'rents came for svc this weekend and they joined A.Treaz and U.Ben so the boy tagged along to my side.LW's damn funny cause we were just talking bout my bro on mon and he mentioned how he hasnt seen matthew for such a long time and he came along this weekend.it was super funny.i think he's the one that pampers the boy the most everytime he comes along.haha.
we celebrated adeline's bday after svc.i think the worst part of being birthday IC is having to crack your brain every birthday to think of what appropriate presents to buy for the birthday girl/guy.well all part of the responsibility.

sometimes what we are chasing for is not truly what we want.

after the 2 msgs at CG and svc this week it's changed some perspective of things.how limited our thinking and actions are due to us.visualize.have faith.speak out.receive it.

you're amazing
neverchanging

2008-10-14T07:29:00.000-07:00

right one,wrong time
today felt so shiok.no school,no PW,no trng.gave me time to catch up on sleep especially after yesterday's late night.i'm thankful for an efficient PW group,hope we can last through this together.but still,what i really need/want-a whole day to chill and slack at home and that hasn't been fulfilled anytime post-exams yet.
well,glad i had the time for you today:)

went to jam with Myrn,LW,YH and DW last night.bumped into j as i was walking with Myrn and YH to find the other two.it was a fun session.we had fun with many instruments.since i can't play the chordy stuff on the keyboard,took on a little guitar and vocals,played around with the drums too.LW's self-proclaimed rusty guitar skills were an understatement.DW was good on the electric too.they were so into it that many strings broke that night.haha.everyone had fun having their turn on the drums,even those noobs amongst us like me.hahah.

we went to rochor tau hui for supper.LW treat!hahah.drove the west siders home since they missed the last train home before we head back to the east.i was so tired,fighting the urge to close my heavy lids.luckily we reached my place before i zonked out.

i was disappointed in your actions yesterday.i never imagined you would be like that cause you're one of those i trust the most.
thanks loads to you for making the effort to get everything out of me,understand and listening last night:)

poh was back on stage for praise this weekend and the atmosphere was really high.more new people transferred to our cg or as BK would say 'more kakis for you'.hahah.well they're really nice,hope they'll integrate into the cg soon:)
gotta plan for the combined cg gathering at the end of the month.loads to plan,hope al gets to book the venue and lanes soon.

al says that not being able to go for OCIP is a blessing in disguise,now i can make it for AC.but i'll miss time with 2 of my beaners and the OCIP team.at least i'll be spending my time in sg well,spending it with a big bunch of fabulous people:)

i still owe so many people outings and catch up-FNL,partner,Beat,D and the list goes on.
and there's so much stuff to be done.i should have more hours in a day!

with you,maybe i took the easy way out.
i allowed the awkwardness to sink in.
in the past,clicking with you didn't even require any effort.
now,maybe i'm the one with no guts.
i dont wanna take the initiative.
now,if only you bother

i feel like eating alot of food now!hill street charkwayteow,kaya toast,satay,scrambled eggs,pancakes,sushi,good gelato,i wouldn't mind $1 ice-cream with biscuit and manymany more.
i'm tempted to bake since there's so many blocks of butter lying in the freezer from the last time we made cheesecake.maybe i'll bake and bake some for favourite too:)choosing between brownie bite cookies,peanut butter kisses or nutella cupcakes.darn.it's difficult to choose.

okay BACKTRACK
photos from pre-exam and post-exam.i know i haven't been taking much post-exam ones despite all the fun.

i found this funny thingy online.they have so many backgrounds and you can like appear almost anywhere.many of them are so hilarious!

you drew me out of the deepest sea
stretch your hands straighten the path

you're my hiding place
i'm trusting you with all that i am
the shadows fade away
let me rely not on my own strength
be my everything

2008-10-10T08:02:00.000-07:00

gave ruth her photo collage today since i felt like doing one for her that day.one of the nicest ones,nicer than Ant's farewell one i did but the nicest one was still Aries' cause both liz and i were working it and a bulletin board has so much more space than the usual paper i use.haha.

A just asked if i wanted to join and play for their external HB choir.hmmm i really miss playing the bells,yes i miss playing my big G however heavy it might be.but another commitment on top of everything,not counting all the holiday commitments,might be too much for now.we'll see about it when details are finalised.

since the west-siders myrn and YH were in the vicinity,we met for lunch at parkway.we ate so much today!we shared a whole tub of venezia for dessert cause we never leave out our favourite part of the meal-dessert!haha.By the end of lunch we were bursting.
bumped into alot of people at parkway.bumped into B,cyn&gang too.bused back with B after lunch for PW and trng.

gosh suddenly i'm really jittery about PW,finally woke up to the fact that OP's this near and we dont have that much time left.hmmm.at least we're nearly done with WR.

training's been draining but i'm slowly getting back the feeling of accomplishment after completing a good workout.my foot hurts,i hope the old injury doesn't flare up again if not i'll be saddled to the bike for a few weeks and that will really suck.the monotony of biking.

and the stars aren't out tonight,
but neither are we to look up at them
why does hello feel like goodbye?
these memories can't replace,
these wishes i wished and these dreams i chased

2008-10-09T02:13:00.000-07:00

it really sucks.the best subj became the worst subj.there was those unexpected results-mostly bad and the rare good one.
maybe like moz said the other time,it'll help in revision and it may be a blessing in disguise.
i hope.
gotta go finish making the 'thing' for bestest

2008-10-05T08:14:00.000-07:00

But you can't say what you want or
Take what you want or
Choose the moods that you fake when you want
You said your life couldn't get much better

crazy week.breakfast on thurs was damn good cause i was really craving for those eggs and sausages breakfast.this kinda breakfast just doesn't happen on a normal schoolday eh.

went for openhouse for 2 hours before going off but still managed to bump into people i haven't seen in ages within the 2 hours.saw people from the '05 batch as well.saw YM-surprised that we could still recognize each other.MR-whom i haven't seen since mad's wedding.EJ-whom i haven't seen since the days he always accompanied MR to svc at TC.
our board is pretty nice now considering the time we set aside to prepare it for openhouse.the weather that day was horrible.

the new group joined us at cg and they are quite a bunch of interesting people and people i didn't expect i would meet popped up too.haha.and BK keeps telling me i have a kaki in the group now.hahah.

bestest gave me the sweetest letter which made me smile:)hope you're feeling better after the bag of sweets and chocs i got for you:)

think i'm falling sick-sore throat and a runny nose.been spamming herbal tea and water.hope it helps.

was mulling over stuff the other day,whether i was being silly when i just kept trusting over and over again.would i have been able to put my foot down to the nonsense and just walk away from everything?maybe not.

maybe this was how M felt going through everything.when we were in the same position but different situations but i never intended things to turn out this way

everything happens for a reason.had a reminder over this weekend that we should be thankful for everything,both good and bad and even the things that didn't happen to us that but we didn't know about.

the road is long
the valley's deep
the ocean's wide in front of me

2008-09-28T08:06:00.000-07:00

outing with MOMO was lotsa fun,as always:)was a fruitful trip and i haven't had FEP food and milk tea in ages.

post exams have been pretty enjoyable but i'm kinda dreading the results just let me get thru this yr with no R-papers.moz was telling me mine can't be that bad cause in his time he had 3 out of 4 but i dont want any at all.gahh.i want ZILCH!
all i want to do is have one day out of this holidays to be able slack and relax at home in my jammies but i think it's highly impossible.haha.

well,according to someone,i supposedly always sound down here.hahah.
hmmm.gonna have N175 join us next week cause BK wanna change the group dynamics before we multiply and split into smaller groups.i know it's a good thing to be multiplying,it means there's growth but it'll feel weird without anyone of them around.all the eating we do,all the funny stuff we do and talk about like getting overexcited like lil kids half our age when playing jungle speed and wii,weird 1-10 expressions,funny fireman stories from DB if not i wouldn't know sg was so 'happening' in the wee hours of the morning.it's awesome to hear everyone sharing their testimonies week after week and to see everyone growing from strength to strength.hope the group doesn't change too much.

reading WJ's blog inspires me in a way,makes me wanna be a better person.

the kiddos were uber cute at the children's day thingy.it touches me to see the kids standing there singing away without any worries,always believing with their childlike faith.

so many lucky friends attended the night race!i already saw some of the pictures and they're pretty awesome.Ferrari had a disappointing first night race.gahh.Kimi Raikkonen has been pretty unlucky this season i guess it's goodbye to retaining the title:(

My first joy

2008-09-26T08:04:00.000-07:00

Thank God for E and G for keeping me sane these couple of days.
well,post exam celebration was disrupted by having to attend colours.

still unsure if i'm down to help out at the children's day thingy.the kiddos will enjoy themselves.i mean having the whole hall to themselves,performances from all over including japan and all the fun stuff lined up.those kids are so cute,especially when they smile at you with their toothy grins and when they're in a good mood,they become really sweet and offer you candies.

F1's on!i hope Raikkonen wins this street circuit so he can catch up in the drivers ranking and to make up for missing out on a fourth consecutive win at Spa-Francorchamps.

2008-09-23T03:29:00.000-07:00

why did things have to happen this way.this is the worst ever scenario that i could have ever imagined.i wish this is just a horrible nightmare that i can wake up from.
what horrible timing too.
i hope i can stash all these at the back of my mind for now.
after all i've gone through,i should be able to say nothing shocks me anymore but why can't i?
i wish you could have done what you said and told me if you knew anything but now,i realize maybe you didn't know anything at all.
pls don't do what i'm most afraid you'll do and i dont want to think about what's gonna happen next cause it'll just wreck havoc to our lives.
hello to sleepless nights.

2008-09-19T05:23:00.000-07:00

well,one paper down.
this exam period feels weird in a way,like something's missing.
different from all the past few exam periods.

thanks to the two people that taught me phy and math and to the person who taught me stuff over brunch today.

if you didn't receive my notes or msgs,
ALL THE BEST FOR PROMOS PEOPLE!
thanks for all the encouraging notes,msgs,prayers and boxes of strawberry chocs.thanks cg for the prayers after svc and a bunch of them are leaving on a road trip today,have fun!if only i didn't have exams,i guess that's a bad thing of being the baby of the group,your exams come before everyone else's.really blessed with all these awesome people around me:)

You can't feel good all your life, nor have everything that you desire. Just try to let everything flow, if it doesn't so be it.

favourite,i'm reallyreally proud of you.
i miss you.

No matter what happens here I am standing
On the hope of Your word promised to me
give me the strength to run this last lap of the race for You.

2008-09-13T05:23:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JAMIE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JO!

hope you're doing well over in shanghai and aussie:)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE OTHER JOE!
hope you had a great nineteenth:)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICYEO!
birthdays galore,so many birthdays happening today!hope everyone had awesome birthday celebrations!LOVES.

had cg mid-autumn festival thingy at the Belmont.time of fellowship by the poolside with all the food and games.we had a huge spread of food as usual and loads of lanterns made up for the lack of light.
ate so much mooncake,ice-cream mooncakes are pretty swell and i can't wait to eat more goodwood park mooncakes.we just received a new box,the previous one was finished within a span of 4 days by the fam.

we suddenly became games IC since taking on the role for BK's bday.one of my partners in crime was busy with her proj deadline and the other partner in crime was preoccupied with his pathology test but nevertheless we managed to pull together a game within a short time:)
we played a game that was a combination of 20 qns and charades.it was pretty fun seeing everyone so on.we played another impromptu game from BK that was really funny.
hung around to talk awhile and listen to all the funny and crappy stories bout tactics.

one of my fave on-screen couples-channing tatum and jenna dewan are getting hitched.cool stuff.

glad you drove all the way down that day to talk and tell me how you really felt.and i could tell you how i really felt about things.
i'm really thankful.
glad to have people who have seen me at my worst and my best by my side,sticking around no matter what.

i've got you to make me feel better

2008-09-10T05:01:00.000-07:00

I'll live with never knowing, if knowings gonna change
I'll stop a feeling growing, I will stay away
Like a broken record, stuck before a song
A million beginnings, none of them the one

didn't go study with KChin today,caught up with a few friends instead.

ARGH.I THINK THE STRESS IS REALLY SINKING IN DEEP THIS TIME.gosh there's still 2-3 more weeks till the end.i think this is the most trying exam periods i've ever gone through and it's really scary.
i've been missing a lot of things/people lately.

hmm i realized yesterday was goodbye to crazy mind-wrecking nights of EOM.FINALLY something's settled.

still have a major decision to make.well,it's gonna be a major commitment above all else due to the busy and tight schedule.i guess only those in the same predicament will understand.

Cause it’s us against the world
There’ll be days we’ll be on different sides
But that doesn’t last too long

2008-09-09T08:13:00.000-07:00

ice cream outing today became a meal instead and i arrived home a tad too full for dinner.
got to see the much talked-about MSI wind in person today.it really is tiny and light but it reminds me of kiddy computers cause of its size.

gosh.everyone has been yearbooking themselves lately but they're quite a funny sight.hahah.ARGH.time's creeping up so quietly and stealthily but yet so fast.i'm seriously running out of time.

really.i think i don't deserve all the trust and faith you have in me,you could have so much better
You're a part time lover and a full time friend
We both have shiny happy fits of rage

We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

2008-09-06T09:52:00.000-07:00

You're amazing
Never changing
Always with me

A! says:
YOU!I LEAVE ONE ENTIRELY ONLY FOR ME AND YOU
A! says:
AREN'T YOU TOUCHED?
yesyes,i'm super touched and honoured:)YOU DA BOMB OKAY?hahaha.sheesh i was laughing at all your jokes till my stomach ached!

had cg today.Ian's going back to London tomorrow,his presence will be missed around cg.hope he'll get a good internship.

early supper yesterday was good.dao hui:)well it was the day that i had to start switching my body clock back to a more normal time as well.

received some happy news and it's like so fairytale-like too,like after so long of going around in circles,you end up at where you first started and the person you've been looking for has been right next to you all along.

sometimes,i'm kinda glad for a friends only/locked LJ cause sometimes you need a place to verbalize private thoughts and rants that you can't seem to tell someone or stuff that may be too private for a public blog.

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

I did my best
But I guess my best wasn't good enough
Cause here we are back where we were before
Seems nothing ever changes
We're back to being strangers
Wondering if we oughta stay
Or head on out the door
If we could just get to it
I know we could break through
if it was meant to be,
it'll come back to you,
we'll still be back to where we left off

maybe i'm doing it again,finding excuses for you

2008-09-04T09:12:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BERNICE AND NIC!

hope you guys had an awesome birthday and loved the presents we got for you guys:)thanks for always being such great friends and all the times together.love yall!

it's been really hectic lately.all the US ppl have gone back,i felt so bad when i couldn't make it for the date to catch the star wars movie before my star wars bud flew back to US.i'll make it up sometime okay?:)

teachers' day last week which was pretty fun when we had breakfast with the teachers.
THE DREAM TEAM gave M&S biscuits and YOG-themed HAPPY N DAY and HAPPY J DAY cards to Mr N&MrJ.thanks lem and jing for taking the trouble to get the biscuit and do the card respectively cause i was busy with all the baking of brownies.we took pretty funny photos,i think the teachers have the funniest expressions!
ong's really funny,i miss having ong around sch,like seriously.
that day was the fateful day where we went out,i tripped on the curb,ended up with a scabby knee and felt like a total klutz.

went for Nic and B's birthday dinner at hard rock yesterday.it was good fun.there were alot of birthday people in the house yesterday.these two were the first to go up for the birthday pranks.they had to get the whole restaurant to sing them birthday song and do a lil dance after that.we got a video of their dance but we promised,no youtub-ing,strictly for internal circulation only:)hahah.

found a new hideout.went there a couple of times with people popping by occasionally.thanks for popping by today,accompanying me while i was studying and you were reading your book and surprising me with the slice of cake.man i wish i'm as free as you now,with no need to study for exams.

been making a few batches of cheesecakes lately.it's been so long since i last made it.i want to explore some new flavours soon!

Painting all my dreams the color of your smile

had a good long 2-hour late night chat with my favourite FNL last night.pretty good having a heart-to-heart,compared to our usual short chats lately.glad i could be there for you:)

and you start to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

2008-08-28T09:36:00.000-07:00

starbucks with you today was awesome,a well needed one for us:)

ahhh i finally passed chem!though there's so much more to improve on,at least one pek will stop scolding me and the other pek will be pleased since i've finally done what he's been telling joel and i to do-start passing our tests.haha.
gosh i really hope i get promoted.gotta work hard for next couple of weeks,no more slacking.hope that i can be motivated and disciplined.i can't help it,the words 'last day of school' keep ringing in my head now cause someone keeps reciting it over and over.haha.back to baking brownies for tmr.

in spite of everything,thank you for always watching over me

2008-08-25T08:48:00.000-07:00

there are so many august babies,i think i've celebrated 8 birthdays in the course of one month.celebrated three birthdays over the weekend and i ate so much!to make up for it,went for a run with rahul today,his speed was fast that i managed to still hit the usual timing for 4.5.

celebrated kenrick's(CHIN-A-CHIN!) birthday on sat at shokudo!we arrived in our usual fashion-late except yuan bo!it's been long since all of us last met up.
To commemorate his birthday,KChin wanted all of us to take neoprints!so we squeezed into the teenytiny booth for neoprints!it was pretty fun and i haven't taken neoprint in ages.haha.

Yesteday was the SOT grad'08 at service.BK,YH,Jeanette,Ian and Dan were graduating.ahhh.now there're so many SOT grads in our midst when we include those from the '07 batch too!this year had like 750 people graduating,the numbers are increasing every year.
i'm immensely proud of them cause of the rigour of the 5 month programme they had to go through.the early mornings just to reach the other end of the island by 8,the tests,book reviews every week,serving in various ministries and going for mission trips.congrats!i guess they've gained so much more over this 5 month period and grown so much closer in their walk.

We had BK's birthday celebration in the evening.It was fun preparing the 'opening act' with anxiety cause it was so impromptu and we just pulled out drums from Dan's music room for background music.it was really fun and quite alot of people came.we had a mini chocolate fountain too:)
it was on to the game-photo of fame.it was a blast!everyone got really excited playing this game.it was really fun looking for the pictures for them to pose when preparing for this game,i found funny/distorted facial expressions and top model poses suggested by sandra.hmmm she also suggested we could do all the photos into a collage once the photos are uploaded from dan's DSLR.it'll be fun looking at everyone's funny poses!

we presented BK with his dollar bill card,photo and notes pillow and AX shirt.well hope he liked what we got and prepared for his birthday!
everyone has been a great help to myrn,gab and i in preparing for this party.
now everyone's looking forward to the sept event,camp,christmas then BK's WEDDING:)

to be loved,to love
to be blessed,to bless

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why
I tried

2008-08-18T09:08:00.000-07:00

i don't like walking down that long dark path home when i can't see a thing late into the night.especially when i'm so tired from the long day and it was pouring like just now.

it's been whirlwind of events over the past couple of days so i was quite glad to finally sit down for a meal with the cg yesterday.though i rushed off for chem after that and they went to flea and easy which looked quite fun and all according to the pictures they took and what i heard from them.
mon took us for lessons ytd,lately it's been either mon or pek,we've been lacking edwin's funny lessons lately.

ahhh!it's been a phenomenal olympics journey for phelps(NIC!!!)
he got all his 8 golds:)
have you seen the US gymnasts shawn johnson and nastia liukin?they're so pretty and graceful and all their flips and landings are just perfect.
but no,it doesn't make me wanna step back into the gym and do those floor and beam exercises though i love doing the trampoline ones we used to do.
andandand Torres scored a goal in liverpool's first game of the season!
what an awesome way to end the weekend:)

we went from being close to being nearly strangers now.it feels odd.As time goes by,i feel like i don't understand you more and more.i thought i did but maybe i didn't know you at all

I always swore to you that I would never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night

2008-08-16T09:21:00.000-07:00

the nightmares came back last night.i thought it would be gone after so long but who knew.it opened up old wounds,kinda hurts badly after everything.

if i could turn back time to rectify everything.
it hurts me to see others getting hurt cause of you causing past hurts.

Words fall out of my mouth
And I can’t seem to trace what I’m saying
I just wanna watch you shine.

Spell it out in a song,
Bet you never catch on to my weakness
I’m singing every word for you.

2008-08-13T04:41:00.000-07:00

gab and i are gonna be smashing party planners!and the SOT students are graduating soon!excitingggggg!

today nickie came up to me and said torres was shedding fur and i was like stunned for a moment there cause we were on different wavelengths.i thought she was talking bout fernando but she was talking bout torres the dog.hahaha.

still getting to catch Phelps in action in school on the plasma is pretty awesome.everyone just sits in the canteen cheering and in awe.haha.nickie's pretty crazy bout him as well!hmmm.Phelps is 5 golds down in his bid for 8 golds in beijing:)

they keep coming up to speak to me about it but i dont think it even helps.it's difficult to please both them and myself so maybe i'll just take it at my own pace.

today's time with you was awhile but it felt like eternity,in a good way.though we just kept making rounds around the block.

we drive tonight,
and you are by my side.
We're talking about our lives,
like we've known each other forever.
the time flies by,
with the sound of your voice.
maybe this is how i feel

2008-08-10T08:52:00.000-07:00

went for A.Sue,U.Chris and Mark's joint birthday celebration.it was awesome catching up with friends you grew up with.met the cousin there,who's back from the SOT mission trip sans JCO donuts though but i guess it ain't easy for the whole group of them who were there for the past couple of days.

chocolate fondue yesterday was the ultimate:)
saw NHNH singing yesterday.ahhh.totally different from the person i saw at tuition.haha.and the backup dancing kiddos were so cute.
mel joined us for makeup cell yesterday and while waiting for dwayne to reach,we were talking bout her first week of uni.gosh.everything just seems so new and it's funny how the lects make fun of e***neering students.
it was amazing to see so many ppl at cg,like what dan said tonight when i told him,it's practically growing before your eyes and you see how He is working in everyone's lives.there was an EC at yesterday's cg:)

Phelps won the gold for the 400M IM!and Lochte won third.gahh.no 1-2 placing.
why do they look so darn nice slicing through the water?

i know i'm stronger facing the same thing now,compared to having to go through it the previous time.i was weak that time but i guess it made me stronger after experiencing it.hope i'll handle it better this time

like you said,the lessons learnt are only from His wisdom and He can take all these and turn them around to something better.

it was so easy that night
should have been strong,yeah,i lied
there's a mountain between us
but there's one thing i'm sure of
I know everything changes
i don't care where it takes us

2008-08-08T07:45:00.000-07:00

when you've made an impact on someone's life without even realizing it and they actually come and tell you that you did,it really touches me a whole lot.what more,three in a day.

reading some stuff lately has been really inspiring and i guess really straightened up and showed me the right way.sometimes the hardest things may just be the right thing to do for now.it's easy to hold on to something that feels so right now in fear of losing it but trust is all we need.in the end,everything will be provided for when we trust.knowing we'll get through all these trials ahead of us cause we're more than conquerors.
well,the things worth fighting for are hard.

as the time goes by,on the whole list of things i really wanna put in the effort for,increasingly i feel that you're not worth everything.in the past,you decided to cave in to pressure,listening to others and caring bout their opinions,rather than take the risk and think about your own.why do you even have to care about what they say?why does it still happen in the present?
i don't wanna trust my gut feeling, somehow i think it's right but i dont wanna go and think about it or trust it cause i think it would cause a new wave to come over my life again to upset the balance in place that i've been quite happy to have for the past week or so.
well,things worth fighting for are always hard.

HAPPY OLYMPICS DAY!as i read in an amusing msg this morning.hahah.
my body's still aching from wednesday!class outing today.we were at macs playing retarded eye-brain-hand coordination games and camwhoring with photobooth before heading down to thai express.seriously,s41 people are innately i-love-camera people!haha.head down to the bowling alley where we booked a game for 3 people with like 10+ people playing,so everyone had a go with a ball or two.today's was one of the smoothest swings i've experienced in a long time.maybe i should tag along with my dad for one of his weekly bowling nights soon to brush up on my swing and game.
left earlier for starbucks sesh that totally made my day:)thank you for the starbucks treat.

Hey, Jude, don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better

And any time you feel the pain, hey, Jude, refrain
Don't carry the world upon your shoulders
Well don't you know that its a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder

2008-08-06T04:31:00.000-07:00

i was at the cable ski place today and saw this super cute russian six year old boy.he was super adorable.we were talking while walking back with our boards and amidst all his chatter,he was trying to show me his stance on a surfboard.hahah.ultra cute.

the kiddo totally made my wednesday:)

pilates,volleyball and cable ski all in a day left me sunburnt and ultra knackered but still,the fun quota for the day has been maxed out!

i wanna go watch BLG!awesome songs i don't wanna miss out on.gahhh.and my dear nickie got to take a photo with jamie scott!ahhhh.awesome stuff.
ahh.and i haven't even replied the FB invites for GLO for youth and Vseow and Siauster's post nat day blowout.gahhh.time is short.i think they may just be maybes.

I got your runaway smile in my piggybank baby
Gonna cash it right in for a new Mercedes
You were worth the hundred thousand miles

Yeah I'm the first to fall and the last to know
Where'd you go?
Now I'm heels over head
I'm hangin' upside down

2008-08-05T06:00:00.000-07:00

i feel so stressed with pressure coming from everywhere,all aspects of my life.
the pressure is ON

R says there'll be a blue moon tonight since i'm supposedly rarely stressed,is it?i don't see no blue moon,do you?

today's oreology fix from JCO,'miracle' chocolates nor the ice-cream treat managed to turn my mood 180 degrees around,it just got a teenyweenytiny bit better.
for once,i didn't mind stoning there listening to you crapping away,cause it was just that tinge of familiarity again.

i was kinda disappointed with you or maybe even disappointed in myself.
i dont know which upsets me more,disappointment with you or with myself?

Restless tonight
Cause I wasted the light
Between both these times
I drew a really thin line
It’s nothing I planned
And not that I can

If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn’t that be something

Even though I know
I don’t want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds

2008-08-02T22:29:00.000-07:00

one of my favourite boys' birthday today!second most important thing/event of august!all the funny little things he does that makes me smile.all the crazy singing and dancing around that just cracks me up and amuses me.all the little squabbles we have just for kicks.all part of everyday life,kinda fun,okay,very fun to have a younger brother though i still want a big bro.hahaha.well,hope he achieves what he has always wanted to achieve:)LOVES.

okay first big thing of august-FOP!went for FOP yesterday with ruth,eloise,cephas,some of r's cg and her sis.this year was not bad,i guess word by mark conner was short but good.i prefered reuben morgan to the parachute band though.why couldnt hillsongs come?:( nevertheless,the bassists and drummers of both bands were really awesome!
ohh i FINALLY had a taste of yoguru,the one HM was gushing to me about.but i still like my frolick too:)

city hall was a sea of red today with people going for the ndp parade rehearsal.it was a chore maneouvring amidst the throng of red people when they're going in a totally opposite direction from you.
bumped into fred today.

a friend reminded me the other day to count my blessings,saying how much i've already been blessed.sometimes we don't appreciate or express how we feel till it's too late.

yup i know i've been really blessed,especially this year.the achievements this year has been nothing short of amazing,achieving things that i never thought i would do or accomplish.
i won't deny that i had to go through tough times,difficult times,setbacks but the experiences i gained out of them couldn't have been any better,especially the many friendships gained and strengthened.i couldn't have asked for a better support system in my friends:)

SATC couldn't have said it any better:
Life doesn't always turn out to be your fantasy. That's why you need friendships that are real to get you through it all.

i may have lost one friendship this year due to my stupidity and rashness and now not wanting to face you.
However,i'm thankful for the friends that have been by my side,doing the little things and making a difference in their own sweet little ways.i guess all the small little things add up to make a huge difference.hope that i can be there for your guys too:)

i dread the fact that there's only 24 hours in a day and it really sucks cause sometimes you feel like you're so short of time to spend with all your friends.Due to busy schedules and all,some i havent met in a month or maybe months or even drifting a little due to busy schedules and some,having to change plans or appointments at the last minute which i always feel so horribly bad about.why can't we have more hours in a day or more rest days?like 4 weekends and 3 weekdays?:)
WE NEED MORE SABBATHS!

well no matter what,know that i miss and love you friends a hell lot!

If every word I said
Could make you laugh
I'd talk forever

you'll always be a part of me,i'm a part of you indefinitely

2008-07-29T06:35:00.000-07:00

After school,went to meet Myrn and S.bumped into kelvin at the bus stop and bused with him since we were going the same way.
walked around with S looking at stuff and getting opinions before going to meet myrn.

i finally got my oreology fix from JCO:)
bumped into isaiah on the way home.

i'm dreading the long days in school now when i'm so tired.sometimes when i feel like i'm having fun,i feel like i havent been working hard enough.

ahh.LW and i are talking bout ayam penyet now,i'm feeling hungry and reallyreally feel like eating it!he's talking bout all the different places with it and i miss the chendol at the indon place we always go to!hmm.we should all go try out the changi V one soon,maybe it'll be our new supper place other than dao hui!

i like when you're driving and singing beside me,not caring about anything else.

2008-07-27T07:37:00.000-07:00

finally celebrated yen's birthday today.we had such a hard time choosing his present.
sherrie came today and we went for lunch with myrn and Leng Kian at shokudo.haven't eaten there in ages!then we popped by the flower exhibition thingy where BK and francis' company had a booth and myrn and LK were doing part time.both of them sneaked us into the exhibit hall using francis and justin's passes.haha.quite fun.

for people who can't appreciate the itsybitsy details of hybrid orchids,we just looked around and getting amazed at all the pretty flowers.LK told us to head to the sixth floor,which was supposed to be even better.when we went there,it exceeded my expectations,it was reallyreally gorgeous.

met up with HM,shuen,raelene for dinner the other day.we missed em who was in brown on holiday course and now,she's still stuck in macau in transit though she's supposed to be back home by now.well according to her,she was with us in spirit.hahah.we had to queue for so uber long before we could finally get a seat.well the mudpie kinda made it more worth it in the end.
i was so scared i crossed my eye too much that day that i kept telling them what if i go cross eyed and it becomes permanent!hahahah.

i feel like eating ayam penyet nowwwwwwwwww.

your word in my life is a lamp unto my feet
your truth in my life brings me closer to your strength
and i will fly
high above the clouds
let all the earth watch us live in love
praising your name and fly along with you

2008-07-23T03:18:00.000-07:00

bumped into deb,carol and chris as i was walking out today,the way we bumped into each other was hilarious.i think they were about to call me when i appeared in front of them.haha.they were accompanying deb back to school to collect her cert.i haven't seen deb and carol since deb's party and chris since eons ago!that's superlong ago!
outing soon!but chris is flying back to aussie this fri:( deb,maybe before you move into hall?:)

yesterday was superlongandmadrushtuesday.longest timetable of the week that i havent gotten used to or like it more though it's been more than six months.
went for ice-cream chefs during the super long break,that included the chem spa ones.TUESDAY IS ICC DAY!trained home with bernice and ruth.chem in the night and it dragged till so late cause our class kept getting pushed back and joel,CJ person and I had to sit at the coffee shop till they had an empty classroom for us.well i had my teh bing fix!but yesterday dragged till way too late and i was so drained out.

monday was a horrid day.pretty much screwed up spa,how could i have been so blind?
talking to LW that day was hilarious cause i guess when you can't see the facial expression and listen to the comical tone he's using,it just cracks you up.
crap talks and coming home to a whole load of good food,my comfort food,made monday seemed a bit more bearable and chased the monday blues away.

i think school is an instant depressant.my mood was all high and happy over the weekend and when i stepped into school on monday my mood went woosh,down to a low.the little things that makes you smile just keeps you going:)

i like where we are when we drive in your car
let's just stop here,for now.
cause i like it like that now and no further.

2008-07-20T02:37:00.000-07:00

to my favourite:
I've been to just about a million places,
Sunny skies everywhere and in between,
But just to know I'm right here with you,
It's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.
I just want to tell you I love you,and everything is gonna be okay someday soon.

i know this is your song of the moment as the song says everything will be alright soon okay?believe that it will be and don't let anything take you down.take it slow as you pick yourself up and i'll be here beside you every step of the way.love you.

2008-07-19T08:11:00.000-07:00

P.S everyone keeps asking,i guess no one knows a thing about what's going on and what went on so let's just keep it as that.

You are always,always there
You will never ever change
Yesterday today the same
Forever till forever meets no end

cg today was good.it felt so long since everyone has been this touched,all the raw emotions pouring out.today just felt really good,time really well spent.
refreshments today was fantastic,we've really outdone ourselves this time,all the better for us foodies:)had loads of zhi cha dishes,fried stuff and the best is always saved for last-DB brought along a whole cheesecake from coffee bean.it was the ultimate.
i'm kinda excited bout tomorrow:)and maybe later.
anyway,all pics from miss ong's farewell up on FB,the link here

And all your different faces and all your different ways are making everything a mess
And all I'm saying is that all your different places and all the complications led to this

i'm the first to fall and last to know
I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside

i can't deny that i'm kinda scared of you.nvm.it made me fully understand the meaning why people used it's complicated.but for me,it's over now.the nightmare's over now.let's hope i don't hit into any serious bumps and it continues to be smoothsailing as i like it.

Look up, the stars are fading
And I am still here waiting
To see you again
Be with you my friend

When the moon is gone forever
I hope you're up there somewhere
I'll see you again
Be with you my friend

'Cause all the roads they lead to where you are
And all the streetlights shine like they were stars
That's where you are

Let's spend tonight on top of the world
And we can do anything,
We can be anything

2008-07-17T06:32:00.001-07:00

today's trip to the PE dept after geog lect wasn't pleasant at all,not one single bit.

2008-07-14T04:18:00.000-07:00

today's race felt different,with a whole new different lot of competitors the feeling you got just felt so different,like a whole new ball game altogether.

no matter what,thanks alot for all the messages of encouragement and luck,really appreciated it.sorry to those i didn't reply cause after a few,my inbox had no space and the phone got cranky and couldnt receive anymore,so i couldnt reply.i know i missed a few.i'm so sorry but i reallyreally appreciated it,it's a thought that counts:) see,public apology,happy now?hahah.
LOVES.

on a random note,saw this on beatrice's blog,i should go borrow the book soon and take a read:
"If I had a camera," I said, "I'd take a picture of you every day. Thatway I'd remember how you looked every single day of your life."

"I look exactly the same."

"No, you don't. You're changing all the time. Every day a tiny bit. If I could, I'd keep a record of it all."

"If you're so smart, how did I change today?"

"Yougot a fraction of a millimeter taller, for one thing. Your hair grew afraction of a millimeter longer. You got a little happier and also alittle sadder."

"Meaning they cancel each other out, leaving me exactly the same."

"Notat all. The fact that you got a little happier today doesn't change thefact that you also became a little sadder. Every day you become alittle more of both, which means that right now, at this exact moment,you're the happiest and the saddest you've ever been in your wholelife."

"How do you know?"

"Think about it. Have you ever been happier than right now, lying here in the grass?"

"No."

"Itisn't like that for everyone, you know. Some people, like your sister,just get happier and happier everyday. And some people, like BeylaAsch, just get sadder and sadder. And some people, like you, get both."

"What about you? Are you the happiest and saddest right now that you've ever been?"

"Of course I am."

"Why?"

"Because nothing makes me happier and nothing makes me sadder than you."

- The History of Love, Nicole Krauss

anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAB!
glad you liked the presents and brownies we got for you.you're gonna be the hippest doctor around!hahah.

a thousand thoughts running through my head now.i don't wanna think anymore.we can't fight it.

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I'll always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

2008-07-13T07:03:00.000-07:00

i will fly high
above sky
praising your name
all for your glory

i'm thankful for awesome friends:)

2008-07-11T09:31:00.000-07:00

*edit with some photos from farewell cause i'm lazy so don't mind the non-chronological order.everything will be on FB soon.
PS.B's got herself a new party planner!party planning's so excitinggggggggggg:)

HAPPY early BIRTHDAY BEATRICE!
FB cheated me!hahaha.I know you still read here sometimes so here's one for you.hope you'll have an awesome seventeenth:)

my phone's acting all cranky again and it's irritating me out!!
on a random note,i wanna go and watch BLG when they come to singapore and catch one of the gigs on electrico's wesatellite tour.
hmmm.i know i've been on like maximum fun for the past 8-9 months and i gotta cut down now and focus on other important stuff,i will but we still gotta have our minimal dose of fun every week to function right?:)

i'm supposed to thank two people for their encouraging and ohsosweet messages and thanks for the other shoutout on the blog.thanks alot.really appreciated all the sweetness and everything:)LOVES.

met up with elisa and po yesterday before elisa flies off this weekend.that busy girl!hmmm.all the aussie people are flying back this week.luckily the US people aren't going off that soon:)which reminds me that i gotta meet D to get stuff tomorrow.

i'm so excited to see people i love and miss alot in the next few weeks.i think only HM gets what i mean cause HM is ultra excited bout meeting a bunch of them with me!

caught up with a whole lot of GG episodes after i stopped watching for a while.hmmm.S and D are so sweet yet it's so sad but they were able to go through quite a bit of stuff together.hmmm.well the whole plot's shifting.

just baked brownies for miss ong's farewell tomorrow and for elisa.it's been real long since i last baked,kinda therapeutic.didn't have time to get baking chocolate so just used whatever chocolate i could find around the house so it had a different taste from the usual.
hmmm.it's sad to see miss ong leave after all the time spent with her.she's been an awesome CT when we were in v12,all the concern and care she's showered upon us,asking about me and just being there.it's always nice catching up with her with a chat now and then.

fickleminded

pictures from SLV on class blog
here

i miss the ohsocute kiddos!

you say i only hear what i want to.
you say i talk so all the time so.

and i thought what i felt was simple,
and i thought that i don't belong,
and now that i am leaving,
now i know that i did something wrong

and you say i only hear what i want to:
i don't listen hard,
i don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
or to anyone, anywhere,
i don't understand if you really care,
i'm only hearing negative: no, no, no.
"you try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cause you know you're just scared to lose.

2008-07-08T03:42:00.000-07:00

today was superlongday tuesday.school's been a drag.
bumped into wing on the bus before meeting myrn after school at soup spoon.it's been the third time at soup spoon in a week and that's not counting yesterday when i just sat there and watch them.went to get gab's present too.another 21st over again.
gosh.everyone's growing up so fast.yknow sometimes i wanna be like peter pan,always young,living with no worries.

BS taught me alot today.totally changed my perception and outlook on life.

broken promises-maybe you're the reason why i dread hearing people promise me something cause in the end when the promise is broken,the disappointment that comes about due to the expectations you have of them.
sometimes i dont wanna give a damn about you.

Don't tell me you're sorry
cause you're not,
Baby,when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
really had me going
now its time to go
curtains finally closing
that was quite a show,very entertaining
but its over now
go on and take a bow

2008-07-06T08:25:00.000-07:00

today's message by mike connell was good.it taught me alot.
seanT's leaving for aus next week and we took lots of group pictures that he's supposed to put up on the wall at his new place.they took a sean/shaun/shawn picture and the cool thing is shawn's a girl!hahah.
well,we'll be missing another talk crap partner for our crapping seshs,ultimate camwhore and no more rushing to reserve seats in his car when we're all going out for lunch.i remember when he let sally drive all of us in his car to town.whoa.i mean usually people won't let others drive their car i guess.

okay this week had its own plus points as well.got to meet a few overseas people that i haven't seen in ages.elisa came to crash vj,it was good seeing her again,i haven't seen her since like last year when i bumped into her at the airport but she's leaving for aus again soon.
HM and i met up with shuen.gosh.dorm life in US sounds helluva fun.

i know deb's crazy over marie digby and went for her singapore showcase but i didn't know she was this good.her songs are really nice.talking bout deb,she's coming back from BKK soon!

Paint me in your sunshine
Paint me in your sunshine
Wake my sleepy eyes
Round me in your comfort
Stay with me for all of time

Reach your hand,
I’ll follow
Darken clouds for your rays of hope

So paint me in your sunshine
Walk with me, stay by my side
Fill my head with stories
For love and war and glory

Reach your hand,
I’ll follow
Light the path that will lead me home

One day the world will grow colder
Everything we’ve come to cherish crumbles
And only then will we turn back and remember your glow

Paint me in your sunshine
Leave the part of you behind
Tell me where I’ll find you
And send me off to another day
Till we meet tomorrow

Reach your hand,
I’ll follow
Hold me close till the day that I grow old

Say it again
The thing about love
Is i never saw it coming
It kinda crept up and took me by surprise
And now there’s a voice inside my heart that’s got me wondering
Is this true, i want to hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cause i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again

Thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there’s no end in sight
The thing about me is that i really want to let you
Open that door and walk into my life

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

And it feels like it’s the first time
That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

Say it again for me
Cause i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen

2008-07-04T06:24:00.000-07:00

the hair feels so much lighter today after yesterday's cut.
today kinda sucked real bad.i kinda expected the first one so i wasn't that upset but the second one was the one that struck me real bad.it was the one i studied hard for and it's like hard work does not translate to results.

thanks alot to the people who comforted me,encouraged me,talked me through and all.it really meant alot.LOVES.
the kiddos at SLV today kinda cheered me up a little.it's like you have to put up a happy disposition when you meet them but before long,interacting with them and chasing them around with all their laughter and funny things they do is kinda infectious.
it's not okay.wake up call.buck up.

Cause it's you and me
and all of the people with nothing to do
nothing to prove
i guess it's to prove to myself.

make me happy
make me smile

2008-07-01T07:55:00.000-07:00

today was one long day at school.it was shitty.when i first saw it,i was kinda resigned to it but when i saw the final one on the paper,i was kinda upset with myself,feeling shittyfied cause it was just so close,this close,too close.if it wasn't just that small difference.
everyone was trying to tell me it was okay with not much time i had with trainings and all,thanks people i really appreciate it:)
i know it's not okay,i guess wake up call for me.

thanks B for accompanying me on the bus ride and taking one whole big round just to go home though she just didn't want to walk across the overhead bridge without an umbrella and getting caught in the rain.haha.
she went off to train home and i went to meet M to talk abit and stuff.felt a teeny weeny bit better after but still it's so shittyfied

2008-06-30T06:09:00.000-07:00

I'm holding on
it's simple but I can't explain this

I'm sinking down
I'm falling off
I don't know why

I still believe it when you say,
It's another perfect day
another perfect day.

So I might try
to leave it all behind
I know tomorrow's not so bright now

I'll say goodbye
cause nothing good can last
you wear and fade,
you're nowhere fast
but today
I don't know how
to keep it all inside
but I guess I'll let it slide.

I still believe it when you say,
It's another perfect day
another perfect day.

Today, I don't know why
I thought that it was real
but I guess it's no big deal

I still believe it when you say,
It's another perfect day
another perfect day
I don't know how
to let it slide

2008-06-28T04:09:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 21ST VERA!

hope you had a memorable 21st birthday!gosh 21!how we've grown up since our childhood days playing by the beach at yearly chalets.i rarely get to see you now since you're always flying around but it's always great meeting up with you and the rest of the cousins:)our outing soon:)love you!

okay another 21st gone by.hmm.the fourth 21st within the last 3/4 weeks.seems like so many people's 21st this year.
the matriach's finally back from TORRES' homeland.if only i didn't have midyears!

i found pictures that have been pretty-fied after they've undergone picnik by my picnik pros-nic&B!

SO CUTE!:)

okay i did a massive uploading of photos like from BJ'08,gaming day at nickie's etc.
cause i'm lazy like that to tag people etc,here are the links:
click
here

here

here

here

here

here

here

here

the stars aren't out tonight,
but neither are we to look up at them
why does hello feel like goodbye?

2008-06-27T09:04:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LW!
thanks for all the lifts back home and crap talks.sorry i couldnt attend your 21st party last week cause of the irritating midyears!heard everyone had good fun and i saw the funny photos of everyone having a go at all the fun wii games.

hmmm.i still have so much stuff to do and i owe people photos,gotta upload many way overdued photos like BJ'08,S is for,Frolic onto FB or something.

had a good dose of beaner loving lately:)meals together and sitting at some corner just talking away with time whizzing past us.gaming/geek day at nickie's place with rock&roll on guitar hero on the PS3 and strikes at bowling and throwing punches at boxing on the wii,courtesy of her nice family,and getting amused by her bro's 'i look 18' line and her cute intelligent lil sis.love you beaners!

spain and germany are playing for the euro finals.i don't know who to support cause they were the only two teams i supported at the start and now it's a tough choice.
TORRES&VILLA OR KLOSE&PODOLSKI?
THROW IN A FULL DAY AS WELL PLEASE:)

midyears are finally over and so many events coming up.an important one in ard 1 week's time,though i may not feel as prepared like for xc nats and i may not exactly like doing this,i'm still gonna give it my all and do my best.
i feel like there's not enough time to go around with all the events coming up one after another.well,time spent with everyone will make it worthwhile
so at the end of the day,i'll be a tired but happy girl:)

you'll always be a part of me
i'm a part of you indefinitely

2008-06-26T09:26:00.000-07:00

if you give up on the most important things in the life,you'll eventually lose yourself.
sometimes in the midst of everything,you lose sight of what/who's important in life.

if you'll only just work up the courage and maybe it's possible,you can do it and it'll all turn out fine.

2008-06-21T06:36:00.000-07:00

AHHH THE MIDYEARS ARE COMING!!!!
there's so much stuff i gotta do after midyears!meet up with aries,liz,HM,partner,stephy,em and loads more other stuff to do.

rushed down for service from cg just now and ruth joined me for service today:)
it was good and the announcement for the building fund came out,we accomplished 90% of it.highest record to date!well i'm glad i kept my commitment and accomplished it 100%:)

okay maybe i should get back to studying however monotonous it can get.gotta be more disciplined and focused!
guide me through this tough period cause i know i can't do this on my own.
give me more discipline and strength to get through this week

you're the strength when i am weary
you give me reason to believe

2008-06-16T06:07:00.000-07:00

today's workout was horrible.after the last run,i just sat there on the track and cried abit.it was so long,so fast,so hard,so painful.one of the most horrible and worst run i've had.

true worshippers came to lead worship at service yesterday.it was pretty cool then we had the father's day drama.
had chem in the afternoon and it was a super hilarious sesh.mr pek just kept going on and on about the hot korean girl in the funny manner and we just kept laughing and laughing everytime we heard it.just when we were leaving,joel had to go and wish dr chan happy father's day and the whole scenario was funny,i was standing outside the door laughing away.
hmm our chem class seems to be depleting in numbers,people keep getting transferred to other classes even HC nic is gone.does vj really do so different topics from the others?

I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
will it?

2008-06-15T23:50:00.000-07:00

if everytime you toss something to that person
you think that the person would always be there to catch it
it's like taking a person for granted
what if the person wasn't and wouldn't be there anymore

2008-06-14T23:20:00.000-07:00

yesterday was seanT and shiqi's joint 21st birthday party.it was at some nice ulu condo that not many people moved into yet so we kinda had free reign of the place.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOTH OF YOU!
the theme of the party was S is for... so we were supposed to dress up as something that starts with S.gab wanted to steal my idea of dressing up as seanT then he said shaunL could go as himself but too bad he's away in israel now and gab dressed as something else.myrna and I were supposed to dress as schoolgirls then in the end she just brought the skinnyseantie and shortshiqiskirt.hahah.YP said she went as sexy,jo said she went as shortie and all the S people came as themselves.

both cakes were from hilton,they were really good!one cheesecake and one tiramisu.after the cutting of cake,they went wild,the guys dunked the bday boy.when he came out,everyone practically ran back to the function room to hide from the wet one.the dunking spree was on.seanT decided to pull shiqi in as well so the bday girl got wet too and a while later,he pulled gab in too.we learnt our lesson-never have a bday party next to a pool,you're just asking to be dunked!hahah.

everyone went crazy with taking photos.myrna,LW and seanT were taking those 10-multishots thingy,it was entertaining watching them do it.

was supposed get a lift home from the cousin but seanT had to go dunk winson just before he left and after that they kept dunking each other countless of times so got a lift home from LW instead cause winson was soaking wet,no idea how he was gonna drive home man.
CRAZY NIGHT WITH THIS CRAZY FUN BUNCH OF PEOPLE!just realized that both CGLs were not there.hope you two had a great birthday!

wet birthday kids!

cousin no 1

cousin no 2
where's beloved cousin no 3?

today was our event at sentosa-FROLIC!reminds me of frolick,i'm so craving for it right now,i want a cup of frolick and the pretty badges!it was scorching hot by the time we reached there.played some amazing race thingy around the island and our team got first:)
thanks to myrna and bert for organizing the well planned out amazing race!
after the game everyone was slacking at tanjong beach and playing ball games.
had a fun time with them!and now i've ended up with tanktop tanline and much tanner thus being labeled gingerbread girl by YT.damn random person!

i dont know what you want

the song stuck in my head from today
Take time to realize,
That your warmth is
Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize
I'm on your side
didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by
Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
no it's never gonna be that simple
no I can't spell it out for you.

It's not always the same
no it's never the same
if you don't feel it too.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.
If you just realize what I just realized

2008-06-12T22:45:00.000-07:00

was just reading a friend's blog and read something that changed my mindset.she quoted this friend i respect alot about how a relationship is not dependent on personality compatibility but instead their maturity.since if both parties are mature enough,they'll be able to resolve their problems.we've learnt that maturity does not come with age so maybe that's why this actually came from someone quite young and has a long relationship to boot.hahah.
well.random food for thought.

went out with stephy yesterday.i haven't seen her for reallyreally long.i missed her!
today took so much sheer willpower to resist buying stuff again at FEP and i didn't!i think only B would understand this.hahaha.
bumped into SC nic along the streets too.that tall girl!
okay.pictures cause i'm kinda lazy.

So tell me what do i need when the words lose their meaning
I was spinning free with a little sweet and simple numbing me
stumble until you crawl.
Sinking into sweet uncertainty

2008-06-09T06:30:00.000-07:00

yesterday was michelle's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICH!

happy birthday cousin!hope you had a fantabulous birthday this year and you liked the card and package we sent over to sydney:)i miss you truckloads!hurry home soon and we can go late night shopping,mango icekimo,sushi and loads more soon!love you!

i just realized that i could have not gone for the BJ trip and gone aus instead and be there for the cousin's actual birthday day!

I LOVE SUNDAYS WITHOUT CHEM!went out with MOMO B instead.MOMO OUTING:)i realized that both my last two sundays without chem have always been spent with her.
it was really fun cause i hadn't seen her for quite a number of days,considering i'll usually see her everyday in school.hahah.went FEP to eat fried rice and walked around.RETAIL THERAPY I LIKE:)
bumped into gil and his gf at FEP.quite funny cause at first he was hidden by B and i spotted the gf and found her familiar but couldnt put a name to the face.haha.well we need a cousins gathering soon!the last one at bark was quite short and they went off to mambo after sending me home.
i havent exactly benefited from the GSS yet,haven't bought anything on sale.

2/3 beaners outing today.went to raffles city for subway with B,cyn and nic and i couldnt resist the temptation of donuts so ended up getting an oreology from JCO.we went down to american club to study abit,the cafe there had good mocha frappe and whoopie pies.so many cute kiddos!post studying was fun,we went down to play air hockey,table tennis and guitar hero.guitar hero's so addictive!and it reminds me that i haven't touched my guitar in ages!
i missed them though i had cyn on the trip with me:)i miss being crazy,talking and having loads of fun.well,awesome company is all that matters right?

i've been eating so much pocky lately and my supply's depleting really quickly too but they're too addictive!especially the milk one!

I can't seem to function from this far away
Never did a moment look so dull
Without your color in my day
it feels so good to hear you speak
This is where I start to miss you more than I can bear
There's a million little voices telling me I should've stayed

2008-06-07T01:00:00.000-07:00

Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Allie: So what?
Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.
ahhh i wanna watch the notebook again.sucker for love stories,where's my movie marathon partner!

dinner last night was fantastic.it felt like so long since we had dinner together especially with the canada people.MANGO SNOW ICE!i'm glad i left early and missed the last part of track camp for the dinner.

word at cg today was good and there was a huge spread for refreshments as always-fried rice,charkwayteow,chapati and curry.everyone thinks i got darker cause of BJ,though it's hot and sunny there but i didn't!

the partner's been asking me to go study with her at HC.i'm really tempted to cause at least there's someone to teach me stuff and i haven't seen her for so long but HC's so far away!and travelling time already takes up quite a bit of time!

on another random note,singfest's lineup on sunday is really tempting but the tix are so expensive!gahh.and it's the same period as FOP and the bro's birthday!gahh.
speaking of the bro,he just came back from camp and the things he does is just so amusing.i missed him and the little things he does that makes me smile while i was away.

haven't had a lot of time to rest since being back in singapore.kinda horrible.haven't even had the time to load all the BJ pictures onto the comp.maybe i shall do it later when i have the time.
hmmm i don't feel like running for them cause it's like this isn't the thing that i have the motivation for though it's still running but it's different.however i'll feel so horrible and selfish if i don't.hownowbrowncow?

i just realized that this seems like a really incoherent post but whatever.hahahah.
cyn got me addicted to click five's all i need is you on the BJ trip.missed their concert in sg.hahah.well one of the two songs that got stuck in my head during the BJ trip.
You're scared
It shows been there
You're not prepared to be
In love with me
So soon cause you've been through enough to have
Something hold you back

We don't need to go that far
Let's hold on to where we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you

They say don't waste your time
They're obviously blind

So let's forget
The words the thoughts they put into your head
Don't give up just yet

We don't need to go that far
Let's hold on to where we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you

We don't need the world right now
We got time to work it out
Hold on tight, I'll hold on too
Cause all I need is

Baby, maybe we should start somewhere
Baby, let me in your heart
Before we fall apart

We don't need to go too far
Let's hold on to who we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you

We don't need the world right now
We got time to work it out
Hold on tight, I'll hold on too
Cause all I need is you
All I need is you
All I need is you

2008-06-05T07:58:00.000-07:00

sometimes you dont know what you can do unless you try
dont let reality limit you just cause it doesn't seem to work that way
cause who knows
things may turn out better than ever
i hope you're fine

i'm finally back in sg!spent the day slacking and catching up with people i havent talked to for a long time.i really dont like being in different countries from other people for like months/years cause you rarely get the chance to talk to them cause of the time difference.
however much i dont like talking online,spent the night online catching up with all the happenings of the past ten days in sg,what i've been missing out on and laughing at all the retarded things some people say and retarded mass convo.hahaha.

I wanna love you but I don’t know if I can
I know something is broken
and I’m trying to fix it
Trying to repair it anyway I can

2008-05-26T01:40:00.000-07:00

hello my dear,i'm glad we finally fulfilled our sesh today,it has been long overdued.it was really awesome,words can't describe cause i guess well,it's really rare!i wish you were going to BJ with me!i think i'll miss you while i'm away or maybe for the whole of june hols!LOVE YOU!

to my other friend:thanks for coming all the way down to pass me the card.and for telling me all those stuff.when one door closes,another opens.i'm sure everything will turn out fine in the end,even better than you thought it would be.you'll be blessed so much more in other aspects of your life:)trust in it,have faith:)i wish you went to bj too!though you pulled out but have fun on your aus trip!

LOVES.

sometimes you feel like you're part of each other's lives yet not quite part of it.like physically part of their lives but not emotionally part of it.
hmm okay i feel like i'm just randomly blabbering.

sometimes you wish you could build up walls around yourself so that you just won't open up to most people easily and just talk with your guard down to people cause sometimes what you said could actually backfire and be used against you in another way you didnt intend it to.
they said it's easy to build walls and harder to tear them down.i think it's more difficult to build walls.

okay another bout of random ramblings.
I don't know why
I still believe it when you say,
It's another perfect day
another perfect day.

2008-05-25T07:24:00.000-07:00

it's been a week that felt both long and short at different points of the week.
YP's back from canada today!she stopped over in tokyo before coming back and it sounded so fun.seanT that lucky person left for japan last week and will be going off again to europe after he gets back.gosh i wish i could go overseas to japan or europe again too!
went to cell yesterday and walked around with myrna and gab looking for presents,it was quite fun but the weather was terrible!

went for the doctor's appt on wed and something cropped up and it took super long to finish the appt this time.was supposed to lunch with gab and first time i would see him in his white coat but too bad the patient took super long so i left first.
went to meet the beaners at jalan besar to support the match.

went to lunch with the beaners on thurs and it was super duper filling.bumped into dwayne and JY at outside mos.man relief teachers are so free these days!it was the day that B took off her braces too so according to her pics with her braces are worth 10 bucks and i've some pic somewhere with just her teeth with braces,it should be worth alot more eh.

FULL DAY was seriously due like a long time ago and we finally got it on fri.it was quite sucky cause had to stay back to train before going off.where have my usual carefree slack full days gone to?rushed off to catch made of honour with the girls.PATRICK DEMPSEY!went to eat and while away our time at hk cafe.

we will shine
shine like stars above
shining in Your light
guided by Your love

2008-05-17T07:52:00.000-07:00

i'm sorry.i'm sorry for hurting you and ending up like that,i know how horrible it feels cause i've been in that position before and it really feels awfully horrible.never thought i would be the one causing all this when i promised myself i would never since i went through it myself.
i never intended for things to turn out this way.i did try but i couldn't and it wouldn't be fair to you.there was alot of internal turmoil before i made this decision.
thank you for always doing all you can just to make me happy,to accommodate me and sacrificing so much.
maybe it'll take time,for you to get over and for me to forgive myself for all these
so maybe someday,we will be back where we started-friends.

I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal,myself and I
We've got some straightening out to do

2008-05-13T07:54:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
wow.all my feelings in a song.

at least both SPAs are over for now.that's a relief!
went for ruth's really belated birthday meal with the tablemates.it was a good time with them as always:)

i just realized how much stuff i would be missing by going for the beijing trip-N368's music concert thingy,amanda's 21st birthday,the click five concert,outings.seems like last year when i missed emerge'07 and the anberlin concert and private showcase cause of italy.
and i could have asked for a sponsored trip to aussie instead:(

i've been eating too much chocolates lately!and not working out as much as i should be.

you'll always be a part of me
i'm a part of you indefinitely
love both versions especially the david cook one.i think your heart will just melt listening

2008-05-11T07:08:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LINYU!

thank you for all the fun and crazy times my dear!hope you had a great one this year!

HAPPY SEVENTEENTH PERLE!
hey my dear beaner,hope you had an awesomeeeeeeeee seventeenth!you are oh-so-loved by every single beaner:)

perle's birthday was yesterday so we had an early celebration on fri.every beaner presented her with one balloon each and together,the balloons spelt out her name.she was surprised by the balloons and cyn was scaring her there was more to come with balloons to spell out her entire name but there wasn't.hahah.
friday was like games day too,spent the two period break playing taiko drums and guitar legend while having little chats in btw.i know i have my geeky techy days where i rely on technology for some entertainment.hahah.

on sat,went to the mac for training,i think i spend a longer time travelling to and fro than the actual run itself.rushed home to shower and out for cell again.word this week was short and sweet yet powerful.there was a major feast for refreshments cause so many people brought food that day.major pig-out!some of them were going for sat service so got a lift back from alvin.ahhh.i'm so excited for next year's BK and P's wedding!sounds so exciting listening to BK talk bout how everything's going.

was supposed to support the handbell concert that night but something last minute cropped up and couldnt go down.i really wanted to,get to see everyone,the seniors and the juniors.i'm so proud of them!it's amazing how the hb choir just goes from glory to glory each SYF and expanding from 3 octaves to 5 octaves!
was supposed to meet aries,huimin,zelei in the night after the concert but everything got cancelled.ANOTHER TIME:)
well no matter what,last minute ice cream that night was nice:)

went early for BS with myrna.had service and since this week was mother's day,they had the play and people going up to give speeches to their mums as well.it was super touching,everyone was like tearing.
After service,was supposed to go out with myrna,LW,YH but a few days before that,we remembered it was mother's day so we postponed it.however for me,the matriach was still in indo.

went out for MOMO OUTING with my darling MOMO,B!went to haji before heading down to town.spent a bomb and it's only half of the month gone and i spend so much on food considering how much i eat and how greedy i can become.gahh.but it was good time spent with MOMO:)
went to the airport(JAPAN!INSIDE JOKE!)to pick up the matriach before supper.

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight
love this song!

2008-05-06T09:48:00.000-07:00

when i heard the news,i wanted to come to talk and console you but i dont know.hmmm.

2008-05-05T09:19:00.000-07:00

the weekend came early last week.
Started on thursday with labour day!went down to waffletown to meet liz and aries.gosh i miss that place!it's been years since i stepped into waffle,had my usual waffle,liz had her usual wings,i love that place:)aries brought along her mac so we went crazy and had photobooth fun,played around with the effects to get both nice and ugly photos.aries knows her best angle on photobooth and liz knows her best and fabourite effect on photobooth.hahah.well,no doubt loads of photos since there's liz there.hahahah.

loads more but too many!had an awesome time with yall.hahaha.LOVES!

After that,met up with po and eloise before making our way down for class dinner at fish&co.it was a great time since class dinners are rare.we had a good time just sitting there having dinner,talking nonsense,funny stuff,thinking if we should cheat the fish&co ppl of a birthday cake and who should be the birthday person.we had a major photo session there like we owned the place,think we caused quite abit of noise.hahah.okay too many photos so i'll upload the whole thing on the class blog soon.i think the class are closet i-love-cameras people cause there's so many photos!and not forgetting those secret sneaky shots of sleeping people.hahaha.

friday was a good day,we ended school early since PW was cancelled.I LIKE:)
after school,went with cyn,nic,perle,yx and benjamin to eat.Bought jayne's pretty bouquet before heading back to school to meet B.
Dance concert was good and jayne looked so cute with her two ponytails jumping around the stage.after the concert,we went to look for the beaners' favourite dancer to present her with our stalk of bougainvillea which was difficult to pluck!she had this funny expression on her face.Eventually,when we presented her our lovely bouquet that we got for her,she screamed.
bumped into ZS and joel,the two SA crashers,at the dance concert.ZS still asked me if i didnt recognize him when i bumped into him the week before cause he thought i didnt.i was just abit blur that day la.haha.
awesome concert jayne,lis,beau,joel,sharon!you guys did great:)

went for deb's birthday party on sat.she's so cute,she postponed the party a week later to accomodate people who couldnt make it on the actual intended one.
saw quite alot of J3s there,i kinda miss seeing their faces around school,esp deb's!MET CAROL THERE TOO!it's been sooooo long since i last saw her.seeing her that day really made me miss my dose of carol's bimboness every sunday!
HAPPY NINETEENTH DEB!
known you since we were sec sch kids and seeing each other grow up through the years.
it's been great knowing you as a friend and a sister in the maren cg,all the fun times at countdown and conferences will always be remembered:)i'm glad we still meet up and all now though we may not be in the same cg and still able to talk like always:)hope you had a great birthday!love you!

thanks my dear for the letter,that came at a timely moment,and the cake today.it was really sweet of you.loves!

Suppose that I missed you
Suppose that I cared.
And suppose that I've spent all my nights running scared
And suppose that I was never there.

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed but I have loved you from the start

Suppose we were happy,
Suppose it was true.
And suppose there were cold nights,
But we somehow made it through

2008-04-30T08:21:00.000-07:00

yesterday,while my other free cone buds were stuck in school for trainings and practices,intended to go for FREE CONE DAY with cyn but by the time we reached there,there was an UBER long queue snaking round and round,extending really far out so we decided to go somewhere else to eat and drink teh bing:)so yall didnt miss out much!
i heard the stereophonics concert was GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!
why on earth did i go and miss it?

when i heard the story today,it was like super sad yet sweet,i almost teared.like i never thought it would happen in real life and someone around me,it's like all so drama.i can't believe it happened to sucha nice person like *!

i guess listening to the story and * said something to remind me-to treasure what i have,cause when it's gone it's too late.sometimes i regret not treasuring what i had.
it's been a while since i really had time to sit down and think and appreciate time alone,it's been a whirlwind of events one after another for the past few months.
there's been so much stuff i should be thankful for:
god and family

ninis and beaners:)
somehow this year just brought this group of friends into my life,other than J, B and the 2 Rs.always there to hang out and go through stuff together.all the cute and funny stuff and encouragements.thanks for all the support and fun times:)

N109 and N368
great leader BK,nonsensical dwayne,sweet myrna,mich dan winson the cousins,standing beside two tall twin towers YH and LW,tall and pretty mel,guitar pro amoz,cute sandra,tennis queen jo,disney stan,future doctors shaun and gab,gucci cap sean,killer stilettos michpeh,lawyers-to-be couple SQ and clement,muaythai pro SG,biker chick YP,cool yen,cute couple don and adeline

thank you the leaders for taking up the responsibility to be accountable for me and everyone for thier care,support and prayers during the difficult times,especially myrna.
you guys are really awesome,like seriously,everyone being a really good inspiration themselves-all the SOT grads and current students-and being so on about stuff.all the fun times last year,pulling late nights just to prepare for the zone meeting's drama and church camp,playing all the gross games like dwayne's throw chicken game.
all the foodie seshs,going for steamboats before driving all the way down for desserts and tauhui supper!

tablemates RUTH and LEM
thank you you two!i always look forward to meals to like really catch up and talk alot of nonsense.it's easy to just blabber things in front of both of you and i'm really thankful for friends like both of you:)thanks ruth for being there through everything,all the support given,all the ups and downs,fun crazy times and blabbering nonsense.i'm so proud of you CT pres:)thanks lem for being there,always someone to count on,for all the prayers you've showered upon us especially during the exam period.thank you for knowing when to come and talk to me when i'm feeling down especially that time when i was uber stressed due to the proj and offering the starbucks sesh to destress and all.

ACD
sorry i know i had neglected yall during a period of time,only yall would know,and that's when we drifted.i'm thankful that we caught up again,yall came back and showed concern and all during one of my toughest periods,even critising your own kind,which thinking bout it now is pretty funny.so maybe something good came out of that bad incident.thanks for always looking out for me like a lil sis and for always making the effort to keep up and keeping in touch despite the distance and our own separate busy lives.and with M the new addition,she's so awfully sweet!ant,you better treasure her!and D,you to S!

cross team
i'm thankful for this wonderful team,constantly there supporting and encouraging each other during the tough trainings and everything.all the notes of encouragements both before and after the race.for all the prayers said and done together in a circle before every race we embark on.this year,we havent been able to fully achieve our goal but it's been a great journey and experience which wouldnt have been the same without anyone of them.

geogy team
thank you this team of people along with the teachers for making this experience sucha wonderful one.though we were always rushing and finishing stuff at the last minute,could see everyone making the effort to complete this project to the best of their abilities despite being bogged down by other commitments.it was another time of crazy stuff like doing retarded filmings at various locations around singapore,getting interviewed and having our unglam faces in the papers,running around plucking and cutting leaves.our dinner as discussed soon?:)

stephy
thanks for always being there through all these years.all the support,all the bimbo and ditzy moments to make me laugh so hard always.times out with you are always well-spent:)phonetalk with you that day was good,though we havent had much chance to go out and catch up lately since something always crops up on either side,meet up soon:)

thank you for letting me achieve what i thought i couldn't,for blessing me time and again this year with things i thought impossible to achieve.it's been a while since i felt like i really achieved something non-academic based,the last time was back in SC when the handbell choir attained the SYF gold.this year was great,started with attaining a pass thereby overcoming the huge hurdle that's been there for the past few years and for letting me run my best despite my sickness that day and achieving my PB.i realized i've been making many choices this year and it's not those easy ones,it's between two really good choices everytime,it's tough making those choices but no matter what,i'm still glad that i've been presented with good opportunities.thank you for blessing me so much and i can never fathom how i could have achieved all these without your strength.

i've realized that all relationships require time,effort,care,love so i promise to make time to spend more time with my friends and on QT to build better relationships and to really treasure what i have now.
love all of you people:)

2008-04-28T09:58:00.000-07:00

many people made my monday but SOO chased my monday blues away!
the random messages and random long phone calls.
when life just gets so routinal,sometimes there're those few little things that just suddenly make your day:)
damn funny.i remember one day,i was super sian in school and suddenly there's this msg in CAPS that said i wanna date you!super funny.aww.but we cant find time that fits both our schedules!:(
and some other time,ice cream buffet?with a whole array of smileys of various kinds.
HAHAHHAH.gosh all the different funny people in my life:)

went to the airport with cyn and B after school today,i was craving for pasta from the staff canteen so we went there but sadly,it was closed.went off to coffee bean after lunch.BEANERS:)

GPP's driving me nuts!

No one told you
That I am really here
But I have been all along
And I know your sky
Is far from clear
And that it has been far too long

But I don't mind if you don't change
Though it might seem crazy
But I'm happy with you this way

don't you know that
You're a part of my heart
And these emotions that I got from the start
Are still with me
And I'm tripping up over my words to say

No one ever told me life could be this sweet
Breathing easy
I don't want to be somewhere and realise this feeling's gone
I'm lost in these chances

2008-04-26T09:12:00.000-07:00

went down for the openhouse today to support some of them.
wanted to go with cyn and B at first but cyn was sick this morn.take care beaner:)
saw nic at the registration booth,this year's prospectus is not that nice i guess and the presentations kept slipping in the 'cake' theme into their ending line.gosh i really miss IP 1 and mr koh's efficiency,creativity and making the IP so much more vibrant!
hung out in school for quite awhile before leaving.the joy of having sofas,aircons and people.

was supposed to meet deb but it got cancelled in the end so went to buy some stuff to make that thing before meeting D instead.it's been what?three months i guess since my bday was in jan and i saw D the night before my bday for pre-celebration.

bumped into josh and Bi,call me slow or something but i seriously didnt know they were together till today.how lag can i get?also bumped into zisheng,that SA yr 2 crasher,who really made me believe he was a new yr 1 that came late.

manda playing with the aviators

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is
Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now
because it's addictive and stuck in my head.

2008-04-24T09:32:00.000-07:00

today felt so good walking out of the school gates so early!or as someone calls it first day of freedom.hahah.
ruth was saying on the bus it's been so long since we took the bus together,it's been quite while.
came home with just enough time to shower and change before going out.

yesterday was CRAZY NERVOUS day!THE DAY WITH SO MUCH STUFF HAPPENING!
THE DAY of geog exhibit at ACM and NATIONALS!!
first thing in the morning when we reached school,we rushed to the geog room to rush out everything.we were rushing to and fro around the school trying to get everything done,so last minute but as miss lim said our interesting yet effective way of doing things.hahah.sent them off in the car before going off the PE dept to prepare.

running the route yesterday just felt different like you're pushing yourself to the max like never before to run your best.
i guess we were all pretty affected by the team results cause we missed team champs by just that bit and we've all worked really hard for this day and it feels like we've let the team and school down.
No matter what,i thank god for this wonderful team that has always been there,constantly supporting and encouraging each other even when it gets really tough.and of course,thank Him cause without Him,we can achieve nothing.

and of course my other wonderful team of geogy people,i felt so bad not being able to go with them to ACM and i really wanted to!and i heard they took the first jumpshot of the geog dept of 2008,i want too!next week?:)

thank you all those people for all the well-wishes especially those really sweet ones and the surprise one from some anonymous person who didnt want to reveal identity but eventually we all found who it was anyway.hahah.
i'm sorry if i didnt reply any cause i might not have received it cause my phone was going all crankywonky again and so far,i've already heard from a few people that i didnt receive the messages like ruth and jayne.I'M REALLYREALLY SORRY MY DEARS!tell me if you sent but i didnt reply which means i didnt receive okay!

LOVES.

It's not a silly little moment
It's not the storm before the calm
This is the deep and dying breath of
This love we've been working on

We're going down
And you can see it too
We're going down
And you know that we're doomed
My dear
We're slow dancing in a burning room

2008-04-23T10:00:00.000-07:00

why do i even bother that you dont bother or even care?